Post by winduptoy on Aug 27, 2011 8:19:36 GMT -8
I don't understand why I can't really believe in a god. It's insanely frustrating because it seems like every time I ask for a sign or for help with a particular thing, I get it. And every time I say to myself and whatever might be listening, okay, this time I'll have to believe. But I never can.
I'm not and I imagine never will be a Christian, at least not in the way any Christian church deems acceptable. I went to a bible study for the first time last night (and knew more of the answers to the leader's questions than the devout Christians in the group; go figure!) and spent a fair amount of it grinding my teeth. I follow a blend of catholicism, paganism, agnosticism with a little buddhism thrown in for flavor. Probably a few other influences I'm not thinking of at the moment.
Heck, I've tried to convert outright to atheism and that didn't take either, because I couldn't be convinced that there isn't a god! I have no idea how people ever manage to feel certain about things, because for me it's always "I don't know."
I don't believe in the dtoxic, but sometimes I feel sure he must have my soul, if I have one of those.
I'm not and I imagine never will be a Christian, at least not in the way any Christian church deems acceptable. I went to a bible study for the first time last night (and knew more of the answers to the leader's questions than the devout Christians in the group; go figure!) and spent a fair amount of it grinding my teeth. I follow a blend of catholicism, paganism, agnosticism with a little buddhism thrown in for flavor. Probably a few other influences I'm not thinking of at the moment.
Heck, I've tried to convert outright to atheism and that didn't take either, because I couldn't be convinced that there isn't a god! I have no idea how people ever manage to feel certain about things, because for me it's always "I don't know."
I don't believe in the dtoxic, but sometimes I feel sure he must have my soul, if I have one of those.
