Torchbearer?

I have read the meaning of what a Torchbearer is but I'm still not exactly sure if I fit into it. I org. thought I was an obsession love addict and I know it's very easy for all of these to overlap somewhere.

I do always feel the 'need' to have someone to think of, and I don't usually forget about the last person I dated until the next one comes around. But I do think it's possible if I gave myself the chance. However I do go back to think about other past relationships if I don't think about the last one.
It's only been a few days since my last experience of someone and I often don't know what to focus my thoughts on aside from working on myself. There is a sense of boredom and uncertainty on how to fill that time.

I haven't made a lot of friends here that I feel close to or feel an interest in spending more time with. I don't think they would be the most supportive group for me. And now I feel hesistant to try to meet friends online to meet in person because I don't trust myself to not develop a crush on them (especially since they probably wouldnt be available to me.)

Anyway, any insight would be appreciated!