Post by iaminfinite on Nov 5, 2011 17:17:53 GMT -8
I'm not sure where to begin.
I've been in various environments that were emotionally abusive or where another family member was being physically abused. My father was never present. That never really bothered me though, at least not a common way most people would react to it. I did feel angry years later (recently) when i found out he had been in other kids lives...ones who never had parents around much.
My mom always made me feel supported and cared for. But the various boyfriends she had made me feel like stuff because they treated her poorly.
Any environment I've lived in has had some type of alcohol/drug abuse.
My father has been married countless of times/cheated/etc. My mom has been married 3. I wonder if this will be my outcome. But this site has given me hope that I won't turn out that way.
My parents relationship had only showed me what a dysfunctional relationship was like (as well as my mom and step dad's), but I think peer rejection during middle school years was really hard for me to deal with. Always getting picked on and pointed out as the outcast. It was hard to manage all their criticisms and words while trying to maintain still being a kid growing up in dysfunction.
Ever since then I've always felt 'weird', 'different', an 'outsider'. I never felt like I fit in anywhere.
I only share parts of myself to people who can relate to those parts. In more recent years I have opened up more about who I am but there is always that fear I will be judged for being the COMPLETE person I am. I guess I don't want to give anyone the opprotunity to do that.
I've been in various environments that were emotionally abusive or where another family member was being physically abused. My father was never present. That never really bothered me though, at least not a common way most people would react to it. I did feel angry years later (recently) when i found out he had been in other kids lives...ones who never had parents around much.
My mom always made me feel supported and cared for. But the various boyfriends she had made me feel like stuff because they treated her poorly.
Any environment I've lived in has had some type of alcohol/drug abuse.
My father has been married countless of times/cheated/etc. My mom has been married 3. I wonder if this will be my outcome. But this site has given me hope that I won't turn out that way.
My parents relationship had only showed me what a dysfunctional relationship was like (as well as my mom and step dad's), but I think peer rejection during middle school years was really hard for me to deal with. Always getting picked on and pointed out as the outcast. It was hard to manage all their criticisms and words while trying to maintain still being a kid growing up in dysfunction.
Ever since then I've always felt 'weird', 'different', an 'outsider'. I never felt like I fit in anywhere.
I only share parts of myself to people who can relate to those parts. In more recent years I have opened up more about who I am but there is always that fear I will be judged for being the COMPLETE person I am. I guess I don't want to give anyone the opprotunity to do that.
