Tomorrow I am off to Amsterdam for the world premier of "Love Addict" the documentary. Because of the close proximity to Paris, we are also taking ONE WHOLE DAY and spending it in the city of lights. It has taken me 22 years to get back. I am so grateful for the opportunity to finally be so close that I can make this dream come true. Ironically, I'll be there on Thanksgiving day.
But no journey of mine is ever complete without stress, panic and stomach issues. Here's my latest blog and all my obsessions about small hotel rooms!
I'll try to update if I can, but neither of us are bringing our laptops. A plus tard, tot ziens and see you later!
Post by Jacarandagirl on Nov 18, 2011 15:05:02 GMT -8
I love your honesty in your blog. I'm assuming D reads your blog, and I admire your strength and braveness to expose yourself just in writing. To me this is the most personal of ways to share- my thoughts, written alone, to you.
Write down your worst fears about what he might think about you (I'm thinking just in private for you). They are things you think secretly about you already. Chances are he doesn't at all, like you are discovering. How cool.
Have a wonderful time at the premiere!
"You deserve better than something that may be comfortable for you but you already know doesn't work and that you'll be complaining about soon enough and hoping that something or someone else will do what you can't even do for yourself. You deserve better - you deserve change".
Excerpt from www.baggagereclaim.com
Thanks jacaranda. He doesn't read my blog, and I'm OK with that. But we have talked about this exact issue many times, and last night, we talked about it again. He's very patient and understanding with me. I told him that when you have lived in dysfunctional relationships all your life, good ones are difficult and feel unnatural. They take an entirely different set of mental, emotional and communicative tools to bring to the table. This is why many people feel and believe that there is no "cure" for love addiction. When one set of skills is so inherent in your nature, it's very hard to replace them with new skills. But it's not impossible. And that's where I am now. Trying to pull from my strongest points. Trying to force-feed myself confidence and self-esteem.
LJ, its not an overstatement to say that your writing and advice has changed my life. Well... I'm at the stage where its changing my life, for the better, and I am grateful. Enjoy Amsterdam. Have confidence that you know your stuff and and it will all be OK. Its a beautiful city and you've earned your trip; enjoy it!