Post by Loving My Life on Nov 30, 2011 4:34:59 GMT -8
I would like to share where I am today, I have turned my will over to my HP, not all at once with this situation, it was just to hard to even think about giving up the fight with my POA, I was going to win this fight even if it made me a miserable love addicted person. I have made some more progress and I finally on the other side and I beginning to see what happened. The reason I believe I was such a mess when I came to this sight is because I really loved my poa, but he never loved me, this was a sick game to him, he had lied to me so much, i could not tell the truth from a lie anymore, I was obsessed with finding out the truth, I was obsessed in proving to this man how much I loved him, I was obsessed with showing him he was not a bad person. Im beginning just now to see all the red flags after 6 months of LC (limited contact), now no contact, b/c I was finally this week strong enough to block him from calling/texting me anymore. And I have finally accepted my reality that he just was not a healthy man. And I have finally "Let Go"...n "Let God"....This has not been an easy process. I had been trying to heal for 6 months prior to finding this forum, and then it has taken another 6 months here to finally get to this point. I have had slips, doubts, and still did not want to let go...but that was the only option that I had left. Just let go of all the craziness...this has been a very valuable lesson in my life. And my HP never gave up on me. That is why I believe iam at peace now. It is not my burden to carry any longer. I love me...finally. ;-)
