Can't get to a meeting: need to share

gemmrose1
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Can't get to a meeting: need to share Dec 7, 2011 13:24:32 GMT -8

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Post by gemmrose1 on Dec 7, 2011 13:24:32 GMT -8

Can't get to a meeting as my POA goes there & I'm doing NC.

I was 1.5 years NC when I went back to the meeting that we set up together. I thought I was OK and my crazy head was telling me it would be OK "After all this time surely it will be fine" I know he's not he person for me and we can be friends, can't we!!!"

Within 2 meeings I was doing things which I was deeply ashamed about and getting an amazing high from it. I managed to stop it eventually and am now 2 months clean. I'm good most days but the pull on Wednesday's is still massive and made me realize finally that this is an addition.

I've got so much from all your posts and undertand that he and those like him, trigger abandonment issues in me, in getting him to love me i'd be changing the past. I know I must deal with my own issues and stop looking outside myself for healing. I do not blame him or any of the others as we are all damaged people and I will carry on being kind to myself, eating properly all the little things that most peopkle do automatially.

It is a hard road, recovery but I have changed so much as a person, become kinder and more tolerant of others. It's made me humble and grateful for everything I have got. When I feel stuck in self pity I know there are others who are far worse off and I get out and help someone. The twelve steps are an inspiration and I must find some way of getting a sponsor and working them again as they do work.

For anyone in early recovery I would say stick with it, we are worth it and the gifts just keep coming.

Just need to remind myself sometimes

looking4direction Guest	Can't get to a meeting: need to share Dec 9, 2011 22:38:30 GMT -8 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Back to Top Post by looking4direction on Dec 9, 2011 22:38:30 GMT -8 i am glad you shared t his. we deserve so much better. Carol

margot Senior Member Posts: 475	Can't get to a meeting: need to share Dec 10, 2011 3:50:23 GMT -8 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Back to Top Post by margot on Dec 10, 2011 3:50:23 GMT -8 Yes, thank you gemrose. It's sad that you can't even attend the meeting that you created. Maybe you can create a women's group.........I like them much better and maybe others in your area would also.

Loving My Life Elder Member Senior Member I am a beautiful child of God . . ."My Inner Child." Posts: 4,139	Can't get to a meeting: need to share Dec 10, 2011 4:24:09 GMT -8 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Back to Top Post by Loving My Life on Dec 10, 2011 4:24:09 GMT -8 thanks for sharing, it there not any other meetings in your area? or hopefully you have some contacts you can call also. we are here for you. keep sharing with us, glad your here.
	One day at a time :-) :-). . .We can do together, what we could never do alone. :-) And a problem shared, is a problem cut in half. :-) :-)

Post by gemmrose1 on Dec 7, 2011 13:24:32 GMT -8

Post by looking4direction on Dec 9, 2011 22:38:30 GMT -8

Post by margot on Dec 10, 2011 3:50:23 GMT -8

Post by Loving My Life on Dec 10, 2011 4:24:09 GMT -8