Yes I have struggled with this too. And some OCD issues too. Such as the bed has to be perfect with no wrinkles before I leave the house. Like some marine is going to show up and do a white glove inspection while I am not home. Perfectionism is what its called. It takes a lot of work to stop being that way. But its part of recovery.
"Nothing in life worth having ever comes easy" Bob Kelso
Post by Jacarandagirl on Mar 15, 2012 3:47:09 GMT -8
I relate. It's a shock when I realise that I am my own prison. But the upside of that is I can let myself out, and have done. Life is equally wonderful as it was painful on the other side.
"You deserve better than something that may be comfortable for you but you already know doesn't work and that you'll be complaining about soon enough and hoping that something or someone else will do what you can't even do for yourself. You deserve better - you deserve change".
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I just think for me that that was all about approval...I started slowing down the thoughts with journaling.......I am good enough as I am..it is what I approve of now for the most part...though I do like to 'show off' a bit and get attention....i think that I really accept my imperfections so much more than I used to......I accept other's imperfections, so why not mine.....I think also because I have had a hard time and was not able to do much about it...and all could see it...I had to get acceptance around it......I accept others much better now too....
Post by lostgirl73 on Jan 22, 2014 14:34:12 GMT -8
I totally get this. I push myself sooo hard and I can always list all the ways I could have done anything better. Being in relationship, being a fixer, I can focus outside me, get some freedom from the perfectionist inside of me who I am never, ever good enough for.