Post by lilila on Aug 6, 2012 17:25:58 GMT -8
I�m not sure if this is the right place for this topic but I had this enlightening dream � want to share.
I was with a fortune teller who in my dream had the ability to really see my future. So I asked her what possibilities she saw for my career (I�m unemployed at the moment) and she told me I should work driving a van, which has absolutely nothing to do with my profession so it was quite a disappointment.
Then I asked her about a guy I liked in my dream and she said she didn�t see us together, that he was too tall for me and I should be luckier with shorter men. This made me uncomfortable because I felt this tall guy was a better, healthier person than the idea of the short men she suggested.
So when I woke up I thought this meant that I don�t really believe in myself - I can�t be succesful doing what I want and a healthy relationship with a good man is out of the question - I have to settle for less (shorter).
Then, this got me thinking how I�m constantly boicotting myself, for instance when I start to plan what to do with my life, getting enthousiastic about it, I soon begin to talk myself out of it, and even feel ashamed I "dared" believe I could attain those goals.
This must be a lack of self esteem?
So, how do I get around these feelings of inadequacy, do I just insist on doing those things even if inside I have this little voice telling me I will fail?
It�s a bit ironic because my father is the complete opposite, he�s an expert at selling himself and he always manages to attain things and get things done even if he doesn�t know much about them. I always thought he was over-confident in himself but now I�m thinking there are some positive aspects to this, I just wish I had some of that too.
I was with a fortune teller who in my dream had the ability to really see my future. So I asked her what possibilities she saw for my career (I�m unemployed at the moment) and she told me I should work driving a van, which has absolutely nothing to do with my profession so it was quite a disappointment.
Then I asked her about a guy I liked in my dream and she said she didn�t see us together, that he was too tall for me and I should be luckier with shorter men. This made me uncomfortable because I felt this tall guy was a better, healthier person than the idea of the short men she suggested.
So when I woke up I thought this meant that I don�t really believe in myself - I can�t be succesful doing what I want and a healthy relationship with a good man is out of the question - I have to settle for less (shorter).
Then, this got me thinking how I�m constantly boicotting myself, for instance when I start to plan what to do with my life, getting enthousiastic about it, I soon begin to talk myself out of it, and even feel ashamed I "dared" believe I could attain those goals.
This must be a lack of self esteem?
So, how do I get around these feelings of inadequacy, do I just insist on doing those things even if inside I have this little voice telling me I will fail?
It�s a bit ironic because my father is the complete opposite, he�s an expert at selling himself and he always manages to attain things and get things done even if he doesn�t know much about them. I always thought he was over-confident in himself but now I�m thinking there are some positive aspects to this, I just wish I had some of that too.
