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Post by sunflwrs4evr on Aug 23, 2011 10:37:02 GMT -8
i am in mourning for my mother...she passed away on aug 3rd ...3 weeks ago...and i am on break from class....and boy am i feeling it....i dont recall feeling so much anxiety....i am nausea...sweating....and really scared....i didnt even make my home meeting today for al anon....maybe i just need more time to process....i am feeling so many emotions....yesterday on my way to the drs..i had a panic attack in the car while i was driving....omg...i passed the hospital where my mom died....and then i kept thinking i was going to be late after that appt...for my next appt....and the panic attack came on....and i made the second dr appt 7 minutes before time....i had a God moment...when i was on my way to the second appt.....i remembered this long and whinding road...that took me the back way...and what an awesome feeling...i usually dont do back to back appts...but they put me in as an emergency visit....and i dont like being late...i will next time ....give myself more time...so that doesnt happen again....
Do u think all of feelings are coming up...because of all of this stress and triggers....i hope it doesnt last.....i am finding things to do around the house..that i very much needed to catch on....
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Post by winter on Aug 23, 2011 10:48:02 GMT -8
Hi hun, Very sorry about your loss. Stress and emotions definitely trigger panic attacks. I suffered from severe panic disorder and anxiety attacks since I was 16. Not fun. When your body, emotions or brain feels something its not used to it sends messages telling you somethings wrong here, and for people who suffer with anxiety when we feel that we start panicking thinking the worst of everything. Try to find things to occupy yourself but also tell yourself you are stressed , emotional, and its triggering these feelings its nothing to panic about. Just relax and tell yourself you are fine and nothing is going to happen to you. Make sure to breathe deep and just relax. Maybe take a bath and drink some tea  Know you aren't the only one who goes through it and you will be ok (((hugs))) |
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Post by sunflwrs4evr on Aug 24, 2011 8:34:48 GMT -8
hi Winter....thanks for your sharing....i took your suggestion....and hopefully i can go out today in peace.....because of the panic attacks...i gave up the second cup of coffee.....and now i am going thru withdrawal....
Since my mom died....i started taking something to sleep...and i continued taking it for couple weeks...a couple days...i lessened the amount...and then i was ok...so i totally stopped taking them....and i think...it all started there....i think i was in withdrawal then....and you are right...i didnt know what i was feeling at the time...and i panicked...first i was panicking...when i heard my sister had to go to the hospital...her girlfriend filled my ear with nuts...about my sister...and after losing my mother...i panicked....i am now panicking inside of me...i have been going thru so much the past months.....and i am hoping it slows down...i cant handle anymore...i dont want to have a nervous breakdown....so now i am withdrawing from the caffeine...and dealing with it the best way i know....i am being gentle with myself and listening to my body..i took a 2 hour nap yesterday...i havent done that in years....i have been listening to meditation tapes all day and night...i will bring one in my car today...and prayer...i can go do some water walking....my inner child is wanting to do that...i think...i am having anxiety about my inner child too....i know i am in withdraw cause i keep going to the bathroom...i think the coffee toxins are coming out....i remember doing that when i got a food plan when i started with OA...i am definitely feeling alot of things i never felt before....and i need to be calm about it....it scares me when i cant figure it out...and also my xbf contacted me....after like 2 months and i ignored him until my mom pasted away....and now i want to tell him lets just stay as friends.....and i need support with that...he really needs to take care of himself...and i need to take of me....i have too much on my plate...i need to clean it off...altogether...maybe i can set a goal...with each thing that is in my head to clean up....instead of having it constantly in my head and then i obsess over it....i made my self stop obsessing over things...and that is when the panicky and anxiety started....so where do i go now....
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Post by happyberry on Aug 24, 2011 8:46:26 GMT -8
I had tremendous issues with anxiety and panic attacks when I was going through my divorce and through withdrawal.
It's all about getting down to basics - getting enough sleep, healthy food (I used to puke constantly bc of nerves and would drink ensure shakes), making a schedule for the day and just getting though it. A plan helps as does reaching out to friends and support in 12 step groups, etc.
Have you seen a doctor? You don't have to live this way.
here's the good news: it really really really does go away.
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Post by winter on Aug 24, 2011 9:28:34 GMT -8
I understand going through withdraws of both drugs and POAs. You are going through a lot right now, withdraw from your POA, withdraw from chemicals, grieving, and more and need to take that into consideration. I think you are on the right track by coming here and talking about it. I understand the wanting to go back to your x for comfort as well trust me I do. Just keep coming here and talking to us. Thats what I have to do.
As for the anxiety just know you can battle it and will win. You need to convince yourself of it though and do not let it consume you. If your brain tells you to panic then you yell right back at it saying there is no need to panic its just this and nothing will happen to me as much as I feel it will so just stop! I literally have to yell at myself sometimes.
((((hugs)))
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Post by sunflwrs4evr on Aug 25, 2011 19:42:02 GMT -8
hi happyberry..thanks so much for sharing...i havent spoke to the doctor yet...i am trying to waiting it out alittle...he will probably up my zoloft....and i dont want to do that yet....i wished i could get off of them....anyway....i am in withdraw from stopping the 14 ounces of coffee the other day...i am feeling much better...i did go to the gym yesterday with no problem...i have been wanting for years to give up the caffiene....i cant believe how addicted i was too it....i know it had a lot to do with the anxiety....and withdraw from the nerve pills...and of course losing my mother a few weeks ago...and the most stressful semester ever...i had a research statistics class....and it was like i was in china...couldnt understand a word....and then once in a while i would understand something....that was powerlessness
thanks Winter....i will yell at myself...when it happens again....i had to rid my plate of stress....i told my xbf that we would be better to stay friends....and i dont think he took it well....but...that relationship was giving me stress and triggers...he was so my father....and to this day i cant deal with my father....naricissitc...all about himself....i am glad that is done i was stressing about it for two weeks....and i dont like hurting anyones feelings... but the truth is the truth...
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Know you aren't the only one who goes through it and you will be ok (((hugs)))