Feelings of Shame

sunflwrs4evr
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Feelings of Shame Nov 23, 2011 9:16:30 GMT -8

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Post by sunflwrs4evr on Nov 23, 2011 9:16:30 GMT -8

Just wanted to post my feelings....I chaired an a al anon meeting yesterday....and i have been crying off and on ever since....it was a gratitude meeting...I wasnt feeling so grateful coming into the meeting and then people were sharing how they were grateful....that for over 50 yrs...she had this girlfriend in her life and now her friend is dying peacefully....and about sharing the last moments of her mom's life and she was grateful...I just continued to cry about it....i shared...and then couldnt talk anymore..for awhile...i was so overwhelmed with all these feelings....
ON one hand i felt grateful and on the other....i didnt and never got my needs met by my mother...
I am hoping she is happy in God's hand now....my inner child still hurts....
my mom just died a few months ago....
I just got finished doing an hour of therapy....and some of the pain came out....what came out of it was that ...it was always about my mom....and it still is...and i am psst off about it....a couple of weeks ago...i had a few days of my mom doing things in my home and i asked her to stop it...because it was overwhelming and confusing me..and it did stop....
and again i am going back and forth in my head about it....I have to let it go and let God...thanks for letting me vent....I hope i can move forward....because. ....i have a presentation to do at class with someone...and she is playing some kind of mind games with me....and i have to let that go too.....and just do what i have to do....keep me in your prayers.....thanks Sun

iamastar
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Feelings of Shame Nov 23, 2011 9:52:20 GMT -8

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Post by iamastar on Nov 23, 2011 9:52:20 GMT -8

I am sorry that you are hurting right now. I haven't lost my parents yet, so I cannot possibly understand what you go through, but you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Take good care of yourself! From your recent posts here, it seems that you have come such a long way at changing damaging behavoiur and thoughts, feel proud about that, and be gentle on yourself.

Lots of light

Loving My Life Elder Member Senior Member I am a beautiful child of God . . ."My Inner Child." Posts: 4,139	Feelings of Shame Nov 23, 2011 14:00:15 GMT -8 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Back to Top Post by Loving My Life on Nov 23, 2011 14:00:15 GMT -8 sun, im sorry you are struggling with your pain, and it does help when you share with others. we are here for you. hugs to you, keep moving forward even when you not feeling up to it.
	One day at a time :-) :-). . .We can do together, what we could never do alone. :-) And a problem shared, is a problem cut in half. :-) :-)

Loving My Life Elder Member Senior Member I am a beautiful child of God . . ."My Inner Child." Posts: 4,139	Feelings of Shame Nov 23, 2011 14:01:04 GMT -8 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Back to Top Post by Loving My Life on Nov 23, 2011 14:01:04 GMT -8 sun, im sorry you are struggling with your pain, and it does help when you share with others. we are here for you. hugs to you, keep moving forward even when you not feeling up to it.
	One day at a time :-) :-). . .We can do together, what we could never do alone. :-) And a problem shared, is a problem cut in half. :-) :-)

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