Post by mqc on Sept 3, 2009 19:54:16 GMT -8
Something strange is happening.
I have been feeling better and better and stronger and stronger. My connection to Spirit is amazing right now, and i honestly feel cared for and held in divine light.
I have started writing a sort of constitution for myself of my rules and beliefs about love that are HEALTHY that I hold, to look upon and guide me if I feel out of control or depressed or negative.
I have a newfound faith in my own ability and a real love for me that is very very solid, more than I have ever experienced.
The sun is beginning to rise, or the Phoenix is raising from the Ashes is more accurate.
And me, I am SCARED like I never have been.
Anxiety, heart palpitation scared.
Things are starting to change rapidly in my life, and the synchronicity of it is SO clear, yet tonight I am crying and finding that I am SO attached to the way things were that I don't know if I am strong enough to do the changes that I so DESPERATELY want and need.
How crazy is that?
I don't know if I am strong enough.
It is attachment, clearly.
And isn't that the crux of LA?
Attachement?
I am getting a second chance to pull my life together in the safest most graceful way possible... yet I am SO scared.
I have been feeling better and better and stronger and stronger. My connection to Spirit is amazing right now, and i honestly feel cared for and held in divine light.
I have started writing a sort of constitution for myself of my rules and beliefs about love that are HEALTHY that I hold, to look upon and guide me if I feel out of control or depressed or negative.
I have a newfound faith in my own ability and a real love for me that is very very solid, more than I have ever experienced.
The sun is beginning to rise, or the Phoenix is raising from the Ashes is more accurate.
And me, I am SCARED like I never have been.
Anxiety, heart palpitation scared.
Things are starting to change rapidly in my life, and the synchronicity of it is SO clear, yet tonight I am crying and finding that I am SO attached to the way things were that I don't know if I am strong enough to do the changes that I so DESPERATELY want and need.
How crazy is that?
I don't know if I am strong enough.
It is attachment, clearly.
And isn't that the crux of LA?
Attachement?
I am getting a second chance to pull my life together in the safest most graceful way possible... yet I am SO scared.
all this great work down the drain?? yikes.