Post by dearprudence on Sept 20, 2009 13:44:41 GMT -8
Hello everyone! It's been too long since I've visited here! I am back, and I feel so much happier. You know why? Well... ;D
If anyone remembers me, I had a huge problem with a boy at my school. In short words, I came to LAA in search of finding my soul again because I felt I was losing my soul by being too emotionally dependant on this boy. Although, I am young I sought out to fix this problem of being addicted to someone, before it would happen to me in an even worse way in my adulthood. Lord knows what could have happened down the road if I never found LAA.
I have ignored the boy for almost more than half of a year now, and sometimes it got bumpy along the road but I managed to stick to ignoring him forever. It was the best decision I made in my life, and I don't think I'll ever back down on it. I only have 1 more year until I graduate high school, and then I will never see him again. At times I see him once in a while, but it hardly throws off my balance at least he affects me way less than before. Though, sometimes when we are actually at the same place together it throws me off completely. The usual thoughts come in..."Is he trying to get my attention?" and "Is he still mad at me for ignoring him?" But from what I learned in this place, I will always stick to my guns, shake the thoughts off, and just look down whenever he is near. Especially, I've learned to keep myself distracted and keep myself busy. I've especially been busy since school is in session again, but that also means I see him sometimes. Though, whenever he gets to me I just shake off my thoughts about him and work hard on my studies. Now that I have an art class, I am focusing more on my artwork and I am excited about going to art school someday. I am really excited about the future really.
I would just like thank all the members of this forum and the LAA for supporting me, and just this organization itself for giving me my foundations into recovery. After 8 months, I have grown to enjoy the activities I loved again, have a peace of mind again, enjoy life without being too dependant on love, and I definitely have more realistic visions on love. Basically, I have changed completely in a very good way, and a big part of it is because of the LAA. Also, it is this journey I've been on these past months of reviving my soul from my horrible heartache which lasted almost 2 years. Although, I feel very comfortable that I will not delve into my old ways again, I will always still look for this place when I do struggle once again. And just like they say...
"There is always a light at the end of the tunnel."
And this place will be that light for me, the next time I struggle.
Just thank you to everyone! I just wanted to tell you all I am doing well, and that my future seems brighter.
If anyone remembers me, I had a huge problem with a boy at my school. In short words, I came to LAA in search of finding my soul again because I felt I was losing my soul by being too emotionally dependant on this boy. Although, I am young I sought out to fix this problem of being addicted to someone, before it would happen to me in an even worse way in my adulthood. Lord knows what could have happened down the road if I never found LAA.
I have ignored the boy for almost more than half of a year now, and sometimes it got bumpy along the road but I managed to stick to ignoring him forever. It was the best decision I made in my life, and I don't think I'll ever back down on it. I only have 1 more year until I graduate high school, and then I will never see him again. At times I see him once in a while, but it hardly throws off my balance at least he affects me way less than before. Though, sometimes when we are actually at the same place together it throws me off completely. The usual thoughts come in..."Is he trying to get my attention?" and "Is he still mad at me for ignoring him?" But from what I learned in this place, I will always stick to my guns, shake the thoughts off, and just look down whenever he is near. Especially, I've learned to keep myself distracted and keep myself busy. I've especially been busy since school is in session again, but that also means I see him sometimes. Though, whenever he gets to me I just shake off my thoughts about him and work hard on my studies. Now that I have an art class, I am focusing more on my artwork and I am excited about going to art school someday. I am really excited about the future really.
I would just like thank all the members of this forum and the LAA for supporting me, and just this organization itself for giving me my foundations into recovery. After 8 months, I have grown to enjoy the activities I loved again, have a peace of mind again, enjoy life without being too dependant on love, and I definitely have more realistic visions on love. Basically, I have changed completely in a very good way, and a big part of it is because of the LAA. Also, it is this journey I've been on these past months of reviving my soul from my horrible heartache which lasted almost 2 years. Although, I feel very comfortable that I will not delve into my old ways again, I will always still look for this place when I do struggle once again. And just like they say...
"There is always a light at the end of the tunnel."
And this place will be that light for me, the next time I struggle.
Just thank you to everyone! I just wanted to tell you all I am doing well, and that my future seems brighter.
