I am so bitter and jealous today. I am bitter for letting myself be a victim for all these years. I am jealous of others who seem to have such an easy life and positive attitude and things just generally go well and smoothly for them. I am angry at myself for bad choices and missed opportunities and lack of motivation. ...thanks for listening...just venting my frustrations
Post by Freetolive on Mar 14, 2012 16:34:07 GMT -8
Feel those feelings. i have felt the same way. I've finally started coming out of them. I admit I've made mistakes, but I'm not a mistake. Just a little twisted. God is going to help me. I have to keep doing my part and trusting. But I know exactly how you feel. It sucks, but it will pass. Be gentle with yourself. You are a good person. You will learn to love yourself.
Life is short. Enjoy the ride with love as your guide~I said that.
Post by Jacarandagirl on Mar 15, 2012 12:22:07 GMT -8
mb123, can I make a suggestion? This has been a huge help to me- check out the work of Byron Katie. Use these angry, jealous feelings you have to get closer to yourself. You're right about the meds. They take the edge off so you can cope with life but they don't solve the root cause of the feelings. Nothing will until you can face those feelings fully. Those feelings are there for a REASON. You can't just skip over them, or get rid of them. In fact, those feelings can be the things that lead you home, closer in to who you really are. That's been my experience.
You can borrow this lady's books from the library and watch clips on YouTube. You don't need to join any group or buy anything to do the work. Here's the link to the main page: www.thework.com/index.php
Sorry if this seems a little zealous or pushing my barrow or anything. I don't want to come across like that but this stuff really does help me in my recovery so much. It's something I can actually do with all that overwhelming negativity, and I don't need anyone else to do it. Although there is a free help line on the site if you look around. There are people all over the world doing this work, and some of them will skype with you and go through your worksheet with you, for free. Very cool.
"You deserve better than something that may be comfortable for you but you already know doesn't work and that you'll be complaining about soon enough and hoping that something or someone else will do what you can't even do for yourself. You deserve better - you deserve change".
Excerpt from www.baggagereclaim.com