A Poem I wrote Before I knew I Was a Love Addict

So Many Questions

When I look in the mirror.
I think back and see a girl.
I realize I lost a part of her.

Was I a normal girl?
Were you a girl like me?

How did this happen?
Why did this happen?
Didn't anyone hear or see?

I cried and begged, I said "no"
I'm confused, was this love?

My feelings are crippled so
I pretend like everything's ok
I go on living day to day

If I let you in
You could see my sin
You'll see it's Me,
the little girl running away.

Why was she is disgraced?
Now she is so displaced.

It's hard to let somebody in
When you've heart has been exploited
It's hard to let someone go
When your pride has been destroyed

How can I do this all on my own?

How can I let you see my heart?
Please, try not to hurt me
Will "you" take care of me?
Or would you even care to see?

Sometimes when I look in the mirror
I can almost see that little girl
She used to be happy, and carefree
All she wanted, was to dream

Can I be that happy girl?

Sometimes I get so confused
Why can't I make things clear?
The noise in my ears is deafening,
Yet no one else can hear

Is this why I do what I do
When I hurt my loved ones so
I can't explain it,
but at least it's best to know