Ferre
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Post by Ferre on May 12, 2013 5:34:46 GMT -8
Slowly i start to realise how irresponsible and uncaring my mother was.
When i was about 16 years i suffered grueling toothache for months. The only thing my mother said "take some painkillers" So i did.
Before i went to school, in school and before sleeping When that didn't help anymore she said take a double dose. So i did.
For months i suffered. I didn't complain. i suffered in silence. I learned that early on because we were taught not to upset someone in the family.
Till 1 day my sister said " why don't you go to the dentist"
I did, of course i used my savings and worked for the money. I did so to not trouble my family over money issues. All the family money went to my mother medications and her favorites.
I went to do dentist for about 6 months on a regular basis.
In my adulthood i had a lot of back problems. I found out after a long time that it was due to my mouth missing a lot of teeth.
I had to spend a lot of money again to reconstruct my teeth.
For months i have been asking myself what caused me to have co-dependency, love addiction, social anxiety. I always believed i suffered no trauma. I had a nice childhood.
i feel incredible angry and powerless that my parents had not even the ability nor the sense to take care of me as a human being.
I lived next to a farm. When a cow or a pig suffered or even their dog suffered, these animals were treated by a vet to end their suffering.
My mother only looked annoyed and said "don't take all my painkillers"
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Post by CodepNomore on May 14, 2013 4:28:52 GMT -8
I am sorry to learn of your painful childhood. It is difficult to comprehend how a mother could neglect her own child.
However, it is good to know that now that I am an adult, I can give to my inner child what my parents have neglected to give to me. I can parent my own inner child.
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thekeytomyheart
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...only if you take care of my heart, otherwise I will not let you in...
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Dec 3, 2013 19:53:30 GMT -8
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Post by thekeytomyheart on Dec 3, 2013 19:53:30 GMT -8
No child ever deserves to be neglected by her/his parents... I am truly sad that we were...
But good thing is we are now healing...we are now in the process of recovery ... It may take time but we've already started so that's a good news!
Oh and I too was neglected as a child .. I want sent away by my parents to an abusive woman...I was sent away because my parents could not afford to feed 5 children...
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