Post by Loving My Life on May 17, 2013 3:21:37 GMT -8
I need to share where I am today with my feelings and my new job, a lot of emotions and feeling rejected keep rearing it's ugly head, but what is different today is I am very aware of this, and I dont react to my feelings.
As some of you know I started this new job about 2 months ago, and I shared in another post about what had happened with all of the thoughts of my new boss, will I got that out of my head, and I know the boundaries. But this still does not make my character defects disappear.
I have to keep reminding myself this is a job, and if someone does not respond to you or to your email it is because this is not good business practices, I have not got the scoop on that yet, but I am learning, but it still does not make my feelings of being rejected go away, and then I feel hurt, and my inner child wants to pitch a fit, I see all of this now.
So it is just not with the poa, it is just with any person who I feel like is rejecting me, I want to know why, what have I done, and the truth is I have not done anything wrong, there are just boundaries in all aspects of life, no matter where you go, and we have to respect those boundaries, whether we like it or not.
I am sharing this because I never noticed things like this before when I was working or moving through my life, I would drink over this stuff.
We have to put on different hats through out our day, if we are at work, we have to act as such, and if we are out with friends then we can let our hair down and not worry too much about what to say or do, there is a time and place for everything.
I am just sharing this in case anyone else is having the same issues. I know for me starting this new job, I see my inner child wanting to take over and show her butt, and this is not the right thing to do.
Some of the same feelings that I had with my poa, are some of the same feelings that I am having on this new job. And it is all coming from within myself, and no one else. So there is still a lot of work to be done, on me.
I hope this makes sense. And please share.
As some of you know I started this new job about 2 months ago, and I shared in another post about what had happened with all of the thoughts of my new boss, will I got that out of my head, and I know the boundaries. But this still does not make my character defects disappear.
I have to keep reminding myself this is a job, and if someone does not respond to you or to your email it is because this is not good business practices, I have not got the scoop on that yet, but I am learning, but it still does not make my feelings of being rejected go away, and then I feel hurt, and my inner child wants to pitch a fit, I see all of this now.
So it is just not with the poa, it is just with any person who I feel like is rejecting me, I want to know why, what have I done, and the truth is I have not done anything wrong, there are just boundaries in all aspects of life, no matter where you go, and we have to respect those boundaries, whether we like it or not.
I am sharing this because I never noticed things like this before when I was working or moving through my life, I would drink over this stuff.
We have to put on different hats through out our day, if we are at work, we have to act as such, and if we are out with friends then we can let our hair down and not worry too much about what to say or do, there is a time and place for everything.
I am just sharing this in case anyone else is having the same issues. I know for me starting this new job, I see my inner child wanting to take over and show her butt, and this is not the right thing to do.
Some of the same feelings that I had with my poa, are some of the same feelings that I am having on this new job. And it is all coming from within myself, and no one else. So there is still a lot of work to be done, on me.
I hope this makes sense. And please share.