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Post by savina1 on May 27, 2013 10:20:01 GMT -8
I've had an on and off relationship and I consider him my ex. We get along great in so many levels. But I feel I don't love him enough and as if I was being dishonest. I feel I have some love for him, but I can't understand why I feel anxiety and fear when I'm going to get together with him or when I think of us having a relationship again. We are second cousins, group up together and were married a few years ago. It didn't last because I felt exactly as I do now.
We always navigate towards each other and wind up spending time together. Our sex is great and we make a good team but I just don't feel I love him enough. I have only been in love once in my life and it was to my previous husband before this one. We lasted 17 years together, and of course it was a very abusive and codependent relationship. I had a very hard time leaving him and a hard time getting over him. I have come to the conclusion I am a love addict.
I am also a people pleaser and I am even afraid to upset my adult children. So, I'm willing to continue working on healing. I just can't seem to come to the core of why I am so anxious and afraid with him. We are getting together soon to go on a trip. I like him, I find him sexy, we get along....but, I don't know why. Has anyone every felt this way? I have done a lot of inner healing, I'm spiritual and also a life coach, but I admit I need more work on this aspect of my person.
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stronger
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So glad to be away from my narcassist :) guess they are the last ones to know who they are ...:)
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Post by stronger on Jun 28, 2013 16:39:18 GMT -8
Yes, I have felt this way...I was in a different situation where I was a bit stuck and very vulnerable when mine was behaving badly...and I had to ignore my anxiety for awhile.....but it got so bad, it just took over......well on top of his 'red-flag' behavior......... I put it down to the body knowing best....we may not understand it all at the time in our heads...but the body doesn't lie....trust your body anxiety....and I think it is nice to take heed of what your kids feelings are around this....they can see things in us sometimes way before we can admit it to ourselves Hope this helps
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