Thank you for your input...Bluebird thank you for the suggestions.Im definitly not graceful when I stand for mylsef.I almost come across as if Im in ATTACK mode.I dont know how to stand up for ME,by being gentle.I guess for now the little bit I can do,I will do.
I do that too. It's not what I want but on occassion its what I do. I am so willing to learn better. I'm reading a book, Addiction to Love by Susan Peabody. She suggest a lot of work and writing and I have just begun. I'm a bit edgy and raw so I will try much more to be gentle as you say so that I don't do any harm while I am in this head space. thank you for your post it reminds me to strive for Balance today.
Thank you for being to kind. I hit a thorny wall and then went on to begin my first step work. I think I got scared. The combination of fear and low self esteem is volatile! I feel so much better after beginning the step work. Writing the answers to those questions really let out some buried treasures for growth. And that in turn has been helping my self esteem. After I had such a reaction on the board I was able to see just how much I was attempting to hold things in and that helped me to start letting things out. and after I wrote and then began working on the step questions, I was able to stay away from him with less pain and more hope for a better future. thanks.