Post by Loving My Life on Oct 28, 2013 9:00:39 GMT -8
I just wanted to share about my weekend, I had a awful weekend, and I am sharing this with everyone to let you know this is part of life, and just because we are in recovery, the people who are the weakest in our circle, (ie:husband, poa, whomever) when they realize they have no more control over us, they will try to beat us down emotionally. I have been sick for about a week, and I was feeling really bad Friday night, and this man that I have lived with for 25 years, decided it would be a good time to run his mouth for about 4 or 5 hours, accusing me of everything under the Gods sun, I felt like I was going to have a stroke, I just went to bed and worked on my afghan. So don't lose hope and never stop moving forward, I did not drink nor did I act out. But I did let him know if he ever pulls this again, I will be calling the police, I will not put up with this abuse. I also know where his actions and pain are coming from, he is a alcoholic, so I do have empathy for him, but I will not let him destroy me.
So with that being said I will share my morning meditation: From Courage To Change
Addiction has contributed to many dashed hopes, broken dreams, and considerable pain in my life. I do not wish to dwell on these feelings, but neither do I wish to turn my back on them. Recovery is helping me to face even the most unpleasant aspects of my past. By taking hold of the hands of those in the fellowship, I am able to feel the pain, and mourn the losses, and to move on.
These feelings are a deep part of me; when they come knocking at the door of my awareness. I wish to open it and let them in. I need to treat myself with the same care and respect that I would a recovery member sharing pain, confusion, and turmoil on this forum, or a meeting. Only in this way can I become whole and at peace.
Today's Reminder:
They say that pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. If I learn to accept that pain is part of life. I will be better able to endure the difficult times and then move on, leaving the pain behind me.
When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.
So with that being said I will share my morning meditation: From Courage To Change
Addiction has contributed to many dashed hopes, broken dreams, and considerable pain in my life. I do not wish to dwell on these feelings, but neither do I wish to turn my back on them. Recovery is helping me to face even the most unpleasant aspects of my past. By taking hold of the hands of those in the fellowship, I am able to feel the pain, and mourn the losses, and to move on.
These feelings are a deep part of me; when they come knocking at the door of my awareness. I wish to open it and let them in. I need to treat myself with the same care and respect that I would a recovery member sharing pain, confusion, and turmoil on this forum, or a meeting. Only in this way can I become whole and at peace.
Today's Reminder:
They say that pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. If I learn to accept that pain is part of life. I will be better able to endure the difficult times and then move on, leaving the pain behind me.
When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.