Acting out or taking care of myself?

I commend you for being an excellent, loving granddaughter. If my mother were in her position, she would have appreciated and humbly accepted your care, attention, and help. Unfortunately, when she was seeking for the care, attention, and help from her children, no one was there with and for her. How sad. And here you are, in the exact opposite scenario. (Life has its own mysterious ways. We are so similar and yet so different.) Anyways, you have done your ‘role’ so well. You will be rewarded. That is it. Leave her part to her. You can only do so much.


I used to ask why when I finally learned the importance of caring for the elderly my mom was already gone. Then the Spirit in me comforted me with this thought: those times that no one was available for her, she learned to rely on her inner Strength to sustain her. In her weakness, her faith grew strong. Those sufferings she had were part of the thorns in her life that would bear rewards for her in afterlife.


When it comes to receiving help, it takes humility for some to accept it. I was like your grandma before I seldom accept what I am being offered and I am so self-sufficient. In fact, I have been training so hard now so when I become older I would not need anyone to help me carry my luggage for me. Hah! However, I learned that if it makes the giver feel valued and appreciated then take it. It is an act of love for both the giver and the receiver. Nevertheless, it should not be forced or obligated but done voluntarily.


In conclusion, I am glad you chose what was right and best for you: to meet your needs first by taking care of you.