My heart is disgusting, worthless and hideous. There is no other explanation. It must be.
The idea of anyone having it is repulsive even to those I've been in relationships with. Why does no one want my heart? There must be something seriously wrong with me.
From Susan . . . the brain believes what you tell it. It is like downloading data on a computer. So, for the sake of your recovery and self-esteem, do not think and talk in such a negative way about yourself. I appreciate you being honest with us about how you are feeling, but lets start coming up with some affirmations to replace these thoughts you have.
I am loveable; I am a perfectly imperfect child of God. I am ok. Be patient God is not through with me. It is never too late to have a happy childhood via your inner child.
Make up you own list and welcome to the board. A board of positive thinking.
You are precious. Your heart is not for others to accept or reject. It is a treasure chest where you can fill it with your own healthy love and self-esteem. We are here for you. We believe in your worth.