Post by runnybabbit on Apr 18, 2016 6:33:14 GMT -8
This is a tough question to answer. I haven't yet allowed myself the appropriate time to get over my exs. I obsess sometimes about how horrible they were and how horrible I was. Sometimes slip into obsessing over strangers with fantasizing only to feel incredibly guilty because I am in a long-term relationship right now. So I will turn to movies on most occasions to satisfy the cravings to quiet down the fantasy thoughts about those strangers or ppl I know.
Like a love Addict I truly am (painful to admit). I met my current bf of almost 4 years not knowing he was also an Addict (like my most recent bfs) of opiates until upon meeting him as friends. I had been texting him on my way to get backeracted by order of my psychiatrist. He had been very nice and worried about me as he knew it was my ex that pushed me to this point just a day before.
He wanted to take things painfully slow. I wanted to rush right in as usual. Then he had to go into rehab for suboxone. Just so you know he used opiates for his back injuries so it eventually let to dependence and he claims hell be suffering with the addiction forever because he can't live with pain and the depression of it. He's very sensitive and is upset easily.
Maybe being together for 4 years is a fluke. He swears he loves me forever and doesn't understand why I obsess over my exes and act afraid of him. We both want to see therapists for our own problems and we don't see why we should be separated just because. I think we can work things out just like every relationship with problems.
I'm at a point now that I can't take anymore feeling like stuff all the time because I'm allowing my past to trigger more pain. If we have to separate I'll only do it under calm and mutual understandings. I cannot leave him if he strongly feels we need to work together and vise versa. Im okay with this. He doesn't know the extent of my problems because I don't think he will understand. So for all he's aware he just thinks I'm hung up on my past. That's all he really needs to know as long as I'm tackling each trigger one by one alone.
Like a love Addict I truly am (painful to admit). I met my current bf of almost 4 years not knowing he was also an Addict (like my most recent bfs) of opiates until upon meeting him as friends. I had been texting him on my way to get backeracted by order of my psychiatrist. He had been very nice and worried about me as he knew it was my ex that pushed me to this point just a day before.
He wanted to take things painfully slow. I wanted to rush right in as usual. Then he had to go into rehab for suboxone. Just so you know he used opiates for his back injuries so it eventually let to dependence and he claims hell be suffering with the addiction forever because he can't live with pain and the depression of it. He's very sensitive and is upset easily.
Maybe being together for 4 years is a fluke. He swears he loves me forever and doesn't understand why I obsess over my exes and act afraid of him. We both want to see therapists for our own problems and we don't see why we should be separated just because. I think we can work things out just like every relationship with problems.
I'm at a point now that I can't take anymore feeling like stuff all the time because I'm allowing my past to trigger more pain. If we have to separate I'll only do it under calm and mutual understandings. I cannot leave him if he strongly feels we need to work together and vise versa. Im okay with this. He doesn't know the extent of my problems because I don't think he will understand. So for all he's aware he just thinks I'm hung up on my past. That's all he really needs to know as long as I'm tackling each trigger one by one alone.
