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Post by ~w~ on Feb 28, 2015 5:01:47 GMT -8
I have no one I can really confine in. And my therapist cancelled she had bad thought. It's honestly no one who can only listen and won't give advice or say ohh you should be greatful for what you have. Why are you not happy? As for me I do listen to joyce Meyer a lot. She had video on not give up, it cheered me on that moment. I do decorate house little by little. And mostly off time am miserable and upset. But I guess healing doesn't have to be easy.. As joyce Meyer said where I was rong or had this in my life in my mind on the pain to the starts.. It's wrong! She said god doesn't want us to suffer. And when pain really bad and you feel like give in up. Don't . I am trying to hold on. Don't have any dreams or goals. That's big thing in persons life. I just doing house little by little. Working even if I want to disappear. Am trying to do what right : do not involve myself with males, do not drink do not smoke. Food is difficult for me. I am emotional or nibbling eater. Thank you for your concern . Hopefully my kids grow up happy. Tho is fat chance off that. Seing me struggling , crying, depressed. But it's only 60 present . The other things I work, I pay my bills on time. I take son to Footbal, I make surer hey do theirs homework. We go after math club. And on top off that I do cook. Even I do not really enjoy..  |
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Post by ~w~ on Feb 28, 2015 5:05:42 GMT -8
I like what she said the through that pain we grow up, show our personality character . Even if am upset I don't go round sleeping round, drinking to death. I look after my kids and I do say I love them. If I cross my boundaries with them I apologise. And I do like being on my own . But life seems empty. Thank you Telmita! Bless you. Hopefully God will show me my way, what I have to do who he wants me to be. And I get piece. X
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Post by CodepNomore on Feb 28, 2015 5:55:13 GMT -8
Hey my dear ~w~, Have you tried any fellowship support group near your area? It is very helpful for someone like you. They usually meet on Sundays. I hope you can find one for you. As for your battles, we all have one. The closer we get to our God the more we will experience spiritual battles. They are meant to strengthen and deepen us into maturity. So hold on to your faith in him and trust him with all your heart and mind. Let go of worrying and overthinking. Have you tried reading "Trusting God Day By Day" by Joyce Meyer? Each day of the year it has a message and covers countless of topics. I highly recommend it to you. What do you really, really want to achieve in your life? You can start from there to make goals. It is very important to have goals. A goal sets your direction and give you a sense of purpose and meaning each day. You can do it. You are not alone in this. |
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Post by ~w~ on Feb 28, 2015 8:02:55 GMT -8
My soul is thirsty for adventure I mean see new cities and culture, architecture, travel. I love experience new things and am comfortable on my own to get out. What I want to achieve? Peaceful mind , no anger inside, stop being little girl and be bitter annoyed. I think I come long way. When I look back since my birthday, in autum God that's a loads off suffering , shutting down on ppl who is toxing to me. I want to live in London City , see myself running in park near. Am free and happy. That's illusion .. I ve got creative side I love painting with my daughter , making doughfigures . Long time I had dream off making things from glass. Not sure how you call it, but definitely would want to try if I could. Tho have not a clue how or where to start. So I just go day by day. Human psychology was big subject I loved. Do feel my heart for kids who suffer ,,but setimes I behave unapropriate toward them : mood swings... Oh I don't know .. I take 1 book then another. Then 3 th.. I listen reading observe .. Want to be calm and settled in me. Don't be low and think that am better dead. But I guess it's just wounded girl inside me.. Or dtoxic lol
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Post by Loveanimals on Mar 6, 2015 1:39:18 GMT -8
waterlil, how did your appointment with the therapist go?
Please seek professional help or call a hotline like LovelyJune said.
Praying for you....
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Post by ~w~ on Mar 16, 2015 23:04:43 GMT -8
Hey my theraphy was canceled. I was rerefered to longer service. I was frustrated because it was hard to get all off my chest. I ve learned that I need to be open, don't pretend be what I am not. Don't be fake. Thank you for asking. How are you dancing bunny lol ? Interesting name
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Post by ~w~ on Mar 21, 2015 16:03:36 GMT -8
Had Quiet good day. Hate my ex. Criticising me and telling me am lazy pig, that would affect kids exct. Couldn't stop shouting on him, and the eating food after he left... Cannot find piece feel guilty being this way:((( maybe good cry will help. God help me rise good kids! That's the main thing am worried about. Me being like I am , what example I Am  ((( |
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