Post by msdarkangel on Feb 24, 2015 16:05:04 GMT -8
I don't really know where to begin so bare with me if I ramble. I'm newly single, never been single in my life. I'm addicted to being in a relationship. I'm overly obsessed with my ex and feel so lost and empty. We were together 2 years. He was an addict. His addiction tore mine and my kids lives upside down and through it all I still love him. When he was not on the drugs, he was everything I needed and wanted and more. But over and over showed drugs were more important. Due to my living situation he was forced to move out.
Not by me. He told me before he left he was gonna get help and do right but since he's been gone, he's avoided me and made stories up to people and has also said he left me for good. Why on earth would I want someone like this? I don't really know. I can't get him out of my head. I can't hardly contain myself. All I wanna do is sleep or try n talk to him but he won't talk to me. I invested my whole being into him and he crushed me. I'm so lost and hurt and confused and it takes everything in me to not go chasing him down and trying to make him talk to me. I can't put into words the heartache I feel.
He did enough wrong in the relationship that no one in their right mind would have stuck around but through it all I did. I never done him wrong or what u would call deal breakers. I supported him and his 3 kids along with me and mine. I just kept thinking it would get better and there is still a hopeful part in me that maybe he will call or text soon. I just feel like I'm losing my mind. And I don't understand why I am like this..any advice would truly be appreciated.
Not by me. He told me before he left he was gonna get help and do right but since he's been gone, he's avoided me and made stories up to people and has also said he left me for good. Why on earth would I want someone like this? I don't really know. I can't get him out of my head. I can't hardly contain myself. All I wanna do is sleep or try n talk to him but he won't talk to me. I invested my whole being into him and he crushed me. I'm so lost and hurt and confused and it takes everything in me to not go chasing him down and trying to make him talk to me. I can't put into words the heartache I feel.
He did enough wrong in the relationship that no one in their right mind would have stuck around but through it all I did. I never done him wrong or what u would call deal breakers. I supported him and his 3 kids along with me and mine. I just kept thinking it would get better and there is still a hopeful part in me that maybe he will call or text soon. I just feel like I'm losing my mind. And I don't understand why I am like this..any advice would truly be appreciated.
