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Post by abetterlife on Jun 8, 2015 5:28:39 GMT -8
I'm starting to look into my smoking. It's a huge part of my life for about 20 years, and I only quit once for 5 months. I'm 35 years old. And when I go through withdrawal and life without a PoA. It's even more often. I can't see my life without it but I know it's the most damaging thing I'm doing for so many reasons. At a recovery retreat, I found it amazing that not ONE person smoked. But 75% of them were ex smokers.
One guy had been a smoker for 26 years.
Anyone reading this have a huge dependency on cigarettes, and quit? I compare my love addiction to smoking a lot and wonder if I should use the same principles in 12 step to guide me to a quitting willingness? My biggest fear is having cigarettes as not an option to self soothe.
My addictions I have to give up:
#1 addictive lovers (check) #2 drinking everyday (check) #3 smoking #4 games on my phone #5 self pity, suffering (in the process)
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Post by abetterlife on Aug 16, 2015 4:57:12 GMT -8
It took a while but all of these are now checked!!!
The phone games wasn't so hard, it actually freed up time for me to do responsibilities.
The self pity was a process but thinking more positive and self soothing has lightened the load of suffering. Unfortunately, friends and people have dropped out of my life, as the negativity was a bond.
I quit my smoking addiction of 20 years last Monday at 10 am - chemical withdrawal has ceased but going through psychological withdrawal now. Very challenging but not unbearable. Mood swings, crying, elated feelings, restlessness, nightmares, urges etc. I've noticed my love addiction creeping in as I feel that urge for another addiction. Eating very healthy has helped and I'm going to start exercising today. In order to not switch addictions, I think an important factor in quitting any chemical is to take it easy on yourself and continue to work on yourself. If I start to take the focus off myself it's like trying to hold back a steam engine, it is too powerful. It is better to switch tracks into the unknown. I don't know if I'll fall back tomorrow, but for today I am living as addiction free as I can.
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