Post by leahb on Jun 17, 2015 9:07:08 GMT -8
Hi Fellow LAs,
Since having a spiritual wake-up call last summer I've gone through some major transformations. I've changed so much in my life-including leaving a job I didn't like (currently not employed-and not looking just yet), addressing addiction and cutting out/LC with people who were unhealthy for me.
Though I do attend fitness classes, eat properly and supplement well I feel tired all the time. I mean ALL the time. I don't have any medical issues that I'm aware of, but since going through this healing process I've found that I have not a lot of energy-regardless of how much sleep I get. I've never been someone with loads of energy to begin with, but I feel like it is so much worse these days.
I've read stories about people "waking up" and having a "kundalini awakening" which I experienced intensely last year. My body trembled for a couple of weeks-I thought I was coming down with Parkinson's disease-but then the shakes subsided. I still get these intense feelings sometimes-in the spiritual community they call them "Shifts". You feel a bit shaky and super sensitive emotionally for awhile. The side effect to these "shifts" I've found being extreme fatigue and sleeping a lot. I used to be someone who would be on the go all the time. I now call that running around trying to please everyone and overbook my calendar "The Worthiness Hustle". I was like that for many years. I feel like now I just sleep a lot, journal and work on my recovery/taking care of myself. I feel really lucky that I am able to take time off and heal, but I feel guilty about it too. Like, I should be looking for a job and shouldn't be feeling so tired and sleeping so much. I feel like maybe this is just laziness. I don't know for sure. I feel like I'm not progressing at all, but I look at how far I've come in a year and am proud of myself.
Why is it that this addiction makes us feel like if we are not doing what other people are doing we are no good? Argh!
Anyway, the spiritual growth has been a huge component of my recovery and I am so very grateful for it. At times I feel so behind everyone, even though I know we are not racing anyone in this lifetime but ourselves.
Thanks for reading. Please feel free to share your experiences too.
Since having a spiritual wake-up call last summer I've gone through some major transformations. I've changed so much in my life-including leaving a job I didn't like (currently not employed-and not looking just yet), addressing addiction and cutting out/LC with people who were unhealthy for me.
Though I do attend fitness classes, eat properly and supplement well I feel tired all the time. I mean ALL the time. I don't have any medical issues that I'm aware of, but since going through this healing process I've found that I have not a lot of energy-regardless of how much sleep I get. I've never been someone with loads of energy to begin with, but I feel like it is so much worse these days.
I've read stories about people "waking up" and having a "kundalini awakening" which I experienced intensely last year. My body trembled for a couple of weeks-I thought I was coming down with Parkinson's disease-but then the shakes subsided. I still get these intense feelings sometimes-in the spiritual community they call them "Shifts". You feel a bit shaky and super sensitive emotionally for awhile. The side effect to these "shifts" I've found being extreme fatigue and sleeping a lot. I used to be someone who would be on the go all the time. I now call that running around trying to please everyone and overbook my calendar "The Worthiness Hustle". I was like that for many years. I feel like now I just sleep a lot, journal and work on my recovery/taking care of myself. I feel really lucky that I am able to take time off and heal, but I feel guilty about it too. Like, I should be looking for a job and shouldn't be feeling so tired and sleeping so much. I feel like maybe this is just laziness. I don't know for sure. I feel like I'm not progressing at all, but I look at how far I've come in a year and am proud of myself.
Why is it that this addiction makes us feel like if we are not doing what other people are doing we are no good? Argh!
Anyway, the spiritual growth has been a huge component of my recovery and I am so very grateful for it. At times I feel so behind everyone, even though I know we are not racing anyone in this lifetime but ourselves.
Thanks for reading. Please feel free to share your experiences too.
