I really love to watch Christmas Romantic movies and I what I love about them is happy ending. It is a fantasy . I wish I'd find relationship which end up well. But knowing all love addiction, no one perfect that's not going to happen. I have to stop that. It's running away from real life. I haven't find any hobbies and interests so far. And my life could be very boring . I just struggle with decisions. Things I d love to try are expensive : piano lessons, fighting sports , drawing lessons . At home I just not up to it. I love reading and movies too. But it's avoidance of social fun.
Movies are great time killer . So I guess I am waisting my time in fantasy .