Post by CodepNomore on Feb 19, 2016 7:09:22 GMT -8
As I have shared here last time I was contemplating suicide because of a major project that had seemingly wasted my valuable time and energy.
In my self-esteem story, I was born a 'loser' as far as my family was concerned. So I started learning about winning and focusing on self-improvements a lot. Self-discipline is one of my main attributes and many said I have an exceptional passion and dedication. I became so successful in my career of choice that winning became ingrained in my system. So when a part of our team did not perform well at my expense, which is the most important project for me to date, it had devastated me. You know let's face it I'm old. Everything counts to me. I could not afford to lose significant moment like this, so I thought.
However, this indirect failure on my part has taught me a lot of lessons...Winning is not everything. In fact, failure or defeat is a gift. It made me rely on my HP, seek support, learn the importance of humility. So in a way, I could somehow relate with the former undefeated champion Ronda Rousey :
"OPINION: RONDA ROUSEY’S FRAGILE EGO"
Like her or not, you have to be concerned about Ronda Rousey.
Rousey revealing on “The Ellen Show” that she briefly contemplated suicide after losing to Holly Holm has been the talk of the MMA world. It’s the latest revelation in Rousey’s dramatic fall from grace after suffering her first MMA loss at UFC 193 in November.
“In the medical room, I was down in the corner, I was sitting in the corner and I was like ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’” she said. “And I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself in that exact second -- I’m nothing. Like what do I do anymore? And no one gives a [expletive] about me anymore without this.”
What’s somewhat startling about this is the fact that Rousey has put an inexplicably dangerous amount of pressure on herself to win, especially in a sport where finishing your career undefeated remains highly unlikely. It’s a trait she revealed in great detail in her book “My Fight/Your Fight.” She has always struggled with losing, ever since she started competing in judo tournaments. Once she became the apple of the MMA world’s eye, losing simply wasn’t an option for the 29-year-old. Not only did she expect to win every fight, but everyone else expected her to do so, too. That’s a tremendous amount of pressure for one person to handle.
However, losses happen, even when you’re the favorite, and they aren’t the end of the world. Ask Georges St. Pierre, who was infamously upset by Matt Serra and then regrouped to become the best pound-for-pound fighter in the world. Rousey should be applauded for being so honest about her mental state, even though it does raise red flags. It takes a great deal of bravery to open up to millions of people that suicide was on her mind shortly after losing.
The fragile nature of her mentality is what draws the biggest concern. What was most surprising about her revelation was the reason she was able to shake the thoughts of taking her own life. It wasn’t the fact that her father committed suicide when Rousey was 8 years old that made her decide against it. No, it was the sight of her boyfriend, fellow Ultimate Fighting Championship fighter Travis Browne, who made her reconsider her thoughts.
“I looked up at him and I was just like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive,’” Rousey said to an applauding crowd. While it does sound great that Rousey wants to start a family, the fact of the matter is she has become too emotionally invested in Browne and winning fights. She’s not giving enough thought to herself.
Nobody knows the intricacies of her relationship with Browne, but there has to be concern that she’s putting a lot of stock in a man who’s not yet her husband. Hopefully, everything works out for Rousey and she can have Browne’s babies someday. However, relationships in the celebrity world are fickle and often fall apart. It would be scary to see how Rousey reacts if she and Browne decided to part ways. At least at that moment, Browne was there to pull her out of her misery.
It’s not the loss to Holm but what Rousey claims she needed to pull herself out of those suicidal thoughts that might be most unnerving.
Andreas Hale is a content producer for Jay Z’s LifeandTimes.com and editor-in-chief of PremierWuzHere.com, as well as a frequent Sherdog.com columnist.
In my self-esteem story, I was born a 'loser' as far as my family was concerned. So I started learning about winning and focusing on self-improvements a lot. Self-discipline is one of my main attributes and many said I have an exceptional passion and dedication. I became so successful in my career of choice that winning became ingrained in my system. So when a part of our team did not perform well at my expense, which is the most important project for me to date, it had devastated me. You know let's face it I'm old. Everything counts to me. I could not afford to lose significant moment like this, so I thought.
However, this indirect failure on my part has taught me a lot of lessons...Winning is not everything. In fact, failure or defeat is a gift. It made me rely on my HP, seek support, learn the importance of humility. So in a way, I could somehow relate with the former undefeated champion Ronda Rousey :
"OPINION: RONDA ROUSEY’S FRAGILE EGO"
Like her or not, you have to be concerned about Ronda Rousey.
Rousey revealing on “The Ellen Show” that she briefly contemplated suicide after losing to Holly Holm has been the talk of the MMA world. It’s the latest revelation in Rousey’s dramatic fall from grace after suffering her first MMA loss at UFC 193 in November.
“In the medical room, I was down in the corner, I was sitting in the corner and I was like ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’” she said. “And I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself in that exact second -- I’m nothing. Like what do I do anymore? And no one gives a [expletive] about me anymore without this.”
What’s somewhat startling about this is the fact that Rousey has put an inexplicably dangerous amount of pressure on herself to win, especially in a sport where finishing your career undefeated remains highly unlikely. It’s a trait she revealed in great detail in her book “My Fight/Your Fight.” She has always struggled with losing, ever since she started competing in judo tournaments. Once she became the apple of the MMA world’s eye, losing simply wasn’t an option for the 29-year-old. Not only did she expect to win every fight, but everyone else expected her to do so, too. That’s a tremendous amount of pressure for one person to handle.
However, losses happen, even when you’re the favorite, and they aren’t the end of the world. Ask Georges St. Pierre, who was infamously upset by Matt Serra and then regrouped to become the best pound-for-pound fighter in the world. Rousey should be applauded for being so honest about her mental state, even though it does raise red flags. It takes a great deal of bravery to open up to millions of people that suicide was on her mind shortly after losing.
The fragile nature of her mentality is what draws the biggest concern. What was most surprising about her revelation was the reason she was able to shake the thoughts of taking her own life. It wasn’t the fact that her father committed suicide when Rousey was 8 years old that made her decide against it. No, it was the sight of her boyfriend, fellow Ultimate Fighting Championship fighter Travis Browne, who made her reconsider her thoughts.
“I looked up at him and I was just like, ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive,’” Rousey said to an applauding crowd. While it does sound great that Rousey wants to start a family, the fact of the matter is she has become too emotionally invested in Browne and winning fights. She’s not giving enough thought to herself.
Nobody knows the intricacies of her relationship with Browne, but there has to be concern that she’s putting a lot of stock in a man who’s not yet her husband. Hopefully, everything works out for Rousey and she can have Browne’s babies someday. However, relationships in the celebrity world are fickle and often fall apart. It would be scary to see how Rousey reacts if she and Browne decided to part ways. At least at that moment, Browne was there to pull her out of her misery.
It’s not the loss to Holm but what Rousey claims she needed to pull herself out of those suicidal thoughts that might be most unnerving.
Andreas Hale is a content producer for Jay Z’s LifeandTimes.com and editor-in-chief of PremierWuzHere.com, as well as a frequent Sherdog.com columnist.