Post by runnybabbit on Jun 12, 2016 10:54:54 GMT -8
It's ongoing with my bf and I. We go through rough periods where I can get nasty and say things I don't mean or act angry as I am most days. I don't really know why I'm irritable but everything just pisses me off. Every little thing that normally I would just ignore about him, about myself or just anything. A couple of days ago we argued because I wanted to meet strangers to play music. I'm a musician and because I'm female he didn't feel comfortable. I took it as he was being controlling and didn't care about my passion for music. He just wants me to be safe. For me it was my way or you are a possessive not a very nice person.
Here's heard me crying over my frustration and said we are over because all I do is make problems instead of find solutions and the list of bad is starting to be longer than the good which meant he can be with me anymore.
Finally he walked in to the room explaining that I need to shape up or we are over. That every time it seems I've gotten better I go back to being a problem.
Summers are usually rough for me. I'm more depressed because I can't control myself. Im so angry with myself. I feel empty too and that the only way to solve it is running away or killing myself.
I'm considered family by my bfs parents who don't take depression seriously. They seem to think you can get out of it just by thinking positive and doing positive things which yes that would work for some people.
Going to see a doctor this week for sure. My birthday is in a couple days too. I just hate my life and everything.
Here's heard me crying over my frustration and said we are over because all I do is make problems instead of find solutions and the list of bad is starting to be longer than the good which meant he can be with me anymore.
Finally he walked in to the room explaining that I need to shape up or we are over. That every time it seems I've gotten better I go back to being a problem.
Summers are usually rough for me. I'm more depressed because I can't control myself. Im so angry with myself. I feel empty too and that the only way to solve it is running away or killing myself.
I'm considered family by my bfs parents who don't take depression seriously. They seem to think you can get out of it just by thinking positive and doing positive things which yes that would work for some people.
Going to see a doctor this week for sure. My birthday is in a couple days too. I just hate my life and everything.
