With such little info you introduced yourself with, I don't think we can give you a useful tip, other than to know yourself first and get back to thinking clearly. Then you will not feel needy of her but act responsibly.
Your recovery is worth the pain of your withdrawal. Remember that "the pain you feel today will be the strength you feel tomorrow." Fantasy-based relationship is a lie. Face your reality and stay well!Kind Regards to all LAA members here, - Codepnomore