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Sept 9, 2016 19:53:47 GMT -8
Post by IslandGirl on Sept 9, 2016 19:53:47 GMT -8
What is wrong with me? I just found out that I'm not only addicted to sex, but apparently I'm also addicted to love. I want to be in love with someone so much. The pain is sometimes unbearable. Why do I feel this way? Why can't I be normal? Why do I feel so desperate and needy? I feel so alone and sad, and I keep crying. I want so much to love someone and be loved by them. I'm so unhappy-WHY???
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Post by Havefaith on Sept 10, 2016 4:16:07 GMT -8
I understand. I really do. Many of us here feel (or have felt) what you are going through. You are not alone.
For me, mine is a spiritual solution. In my weakest moment, I fell to my knees and begged HP for relief from my unending emotional pain. I begged for direction. I could no longer do this alone, managing the pain, the obsessions, the compulsions, the addictive acting-out behaviors. I was in a BAD way.
"HP, you are in charge. Guide me towards healing. Guide me in my search for a therapist who can help me navigate these complex issues that are threatening to leave me spiritually and emotionally bankrupt."
And indeed -- HP did just that. Long story, made short -- I have been with my therapist for six years. Yes, it is a long process, but I had been in a state of Love Addiction for 30+ years (yup, no kidding!). And as we dug deeper, and emerging issues got even more complex, my therapist referred me (temporarily) to a psychiatrist for psychodynamic therapy. I am now back to working with my therapist -- I see her a couple times a month. She keeps me accountable and on track.
And who is the Guiding Force in all this? Not me. HP is. Of course, I do my part -- healing/recovery does not happen on its own. But I finally came to the conclusion that I don't have the willpower and wherewithal to recover on my own. I am currently reading a book by John Carmichael called "Drunks and Monks" -- it is, quite possibly, the best book I have ever read in terms of taking a realistic, hard look at addiction (but infused with a dark humor which appealed to me). At one point, he says, "The time for living according to my terms has passed." Yes. Yes. Yes.
Having said all this, I can pretty much sum up my philosophy in life through Galatians 5, verses 13-26. It addresses my sex/love addiction issues directly, and it is my 'go to' philosophy when I am feeling weak. In fact, I am fortunate enough to have found a local retreat center that is basing its next weekend retreat on Galatians 5. I will be attending. What a gift.
Have Faith
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Oct 9, 2016 15:56:15 GMT -8
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Post by Namaste6 on Oct 9, 2016 15:56:15 GMT -8
I was desperate to be loved. All the abuse at home and lack of love made me seek love outside. And still makes me do I dont think i can be cured
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Post by faith~hope~love on Oct 4, 2017 18:17:06 GMT -8
I understand. I really do. Many of us here feel (or have felt) what you are going through. You are not alone. For me, mine is a spiritual solution. In my weakest moment, I fell to my knees and begged HP for relief from my unending emotional pain. I begged for direction. I could no longer do this alone, managing the pain, the obsessions, the compulsions, the addictive acting-out behaviors. I was in a BAD way. "HP, you are in charge. Guide me towards healing. Guide me in my search for a therapist who can help me navigate these complex issues that are threatening to leave me spiritually and emotionally bankrupt." And indeed -- HP did just that. Long story, made short -- I have been with my therapist for six years. Yes, it is a long process, but I had been in a state of Love Addiction for 30+ years (yup, no kidding!). And as we dug deeper, and emerging issues got even more complex, my therapist referred me (temporarily) to a psychiatrist for psychodynamic therapy. I am now back to working with my therapist -- I see her a couple times a month. She keeps me accountable and on track. And who is the Guiding Force in all this? Not me. HP is. Of course, I do my part -- healing/recovery does not happen on its own. But I finally came to the conclusion that I don't have the willpower and wherewithal to recover on my own. I am currently reading a book by John Carmichael called "Drunks and Monks" -- it is, quite possibly, the best book I have ever read in terms of taking a realistic, hard look at addiction (but infused with a dark humor which appealed to me). At one point, he says, "The time for living according to my terms has passed." Yes. Yes. Yes. Having said all this, I can pretty much sum up my philosophy in life through Galatians 5, verses 13-26. It addresses my sex/love addiction issues directly, and it is my 'go to' philosophy when I am feeling weak. In fact, I am fortunate enough to have found a local retreat center that is basing its next weekend retreat on Galatians 5. I will be attending. What a gift. Have Faith This has helped me immensely tonight when I was incredibly tempted to break no contact in this crazy withdrawal...thank you.
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