Google "neurological effects of childhood trauma for more information.
I have always known that childhood trauma changed me. My mother told me that I had been a happy child until I was four when she got ill and I was sent to my narcissistic grandmother. Now we have proof that trauma change the brain and changes our lives. But you can transcend this. We are here to help. This should reduce any shame you might have for being a love addict.
The Body Keeps the Score, by Bessel Van Der Kolk, page 313
"The traumatized / CPTSD brain is unable to organize and produce a coherent interpretive pattern from the incoming signals."
This inability to interpret and recognize what we are seeing, helps contribute to "repetition compulsion", in the LAA case, choosing the same sort of toxic partner over and over again.
My inner critic blames me for not recognizing the danger signals that my ex clearly displayed. "How could you have been so naive to not have seen that?"
In reality my system to organize the incoming signals and interpret the danger signals is not functioning properly. My inner circuitry is not working properly. My early warning radar is not working properly. I don't recognize the danger signals.
I need to be extra cautious and really watch what's going on.