Post by maxheadcase on Jun 26, 2017 8:23:36 GMT -8
Things were going well with me and my POA but it seems her and a mutual guy friend are now becoming closer and I am getting a bit jealous. He knew her and I were becoming close. She told him that I have been there for her and he hasn't because of their work hours. Her work hours were reduced so now she talks with him more and since her and I both expressed feelings, things have become awkward.
Mutual guy friend who loves her knew her and I were getting closer and spending time together, now he blows up her phone or berates me on Facebook texting when her phone is busy, thinking shes talking to me, which it usually was. Now it seems the dynamics of our friendship has changed and it's become a "friend" triangle and it is bothering me.
I guess I'm probably just over thinking things (my downfall) but I feel like even though her and I became closer due to the length and volume of our phone calls, the same will happen with her and him, making me feel as though I'm just someone for her to kill time with when she is bored, lonely or depressed.
It's the take it or leave casualness of her view of the friendship that also has bothered me in the past and present situation. I know I have the free will to walk away. The odd thing is a couple of weeks ago our mutual guy friend and I were talking and I said "it would be a lot easier to deal with these feelings for her as a friend if I were in a relationship with another women" he mentioned it to her on the phone this the weekend, she said it hurt her, even though she herself doesn't want to be in a relationship and said I could see and do what I want. Whose hurt here? Time to hop on the crazy train. Life is getting tiresome. Overthinking. Depression. Can't sleep. Insanity. Strike me down now, Jesus!
Mutual guy friend who loves her knew her and I were getting closer and spending time together, now he blows up her phone or berates me on Facebook texting when her phone is busy, thinking shes talking to me, which it usually was. Now it seems the dynamics of our friendship has changed and it's become a "friend" triangle and it is bothering me.
I guess I'm probably just over thinking things (my downfall) but I feel like even though her and I became closer due to the length and volume of our phone calls, the same will happen with her and him, making me feel as though I'm just someone for her to kill time with when she is bored, lonely or depressed.
It's the take it or leave casualness of her view of the friendship that also has bothered me in the past and present situation. I know I have the free will to walk away. The odd thing is a couple of weeks ago our mutual guy friend and I were talking and I said "it would be a lot easier to deal with these feelings for her as a friend if I were in a relationship with another women" he mentioned it to her on the phone this the weekend, she said it hurt her, even though she herself doesn't want to be in a relationship and said I could see and do what I want. Whose hurt here? Time to hop on the crazy train. Life is getting tiresome. Overthinking. Depression. Can't sleep. Insanity. Strike me down now, Jesus!