"Hello, it's me"

Hello,

My name is Jade, a 33 year old girl from Italy. I discovered almost one year ago to suffer from love addiction (specifically, relationship addiction), and I felt like the whole world was collapsing in my head.

Before that moment, I couldn’t understand why I got stuck in bad relationships as if I were in chains and unable to take decisions.

Here, in Italy, I found great difficulties to find a specialist in Love addictions, and for this reason it took ten years to understand what was wrong with me. I met the most incapable therapists that increased my guilt, fears and feelings of inadequacy.

I wanted to quit life, I thought about suicide as an alternative to end my sufferings more than once.

Thanks to my current therapists, I was able to realize my subconscious patterns, that make me act this way:

1 When I feel terribly alone I start a relationship with someone I don’t love;

2 When I realize I don’t love him, I also realize that I’m not able to quit the relationship;

3 When, for some special reasons, I “succeed” in quitting the relationship, I fall in a deep depression state and I can’t recover.


My relationships are so unhappy that lead to different health problems like depression, anxiety, loss of interests, isolation, resignation, suicidal thoughts, breathing problems, muscular weakness, loss of balance while walking.

I’ve also discovered that my parents have an addictive relationship: my father tries to scare my mother with psychological abuse and she is unable to quit!

Now, I’m in a long-term relationship and I feel very depressed. I want to quit but I can’t. I feel lost, doubtful, guilty, unable to live with my solitude. It’s so frustrating.

I’m scared. I keep asking myself: will I be able to heal my emotional pain?



Thank you