Post by Deleted on Dec 16, 2018 6:04:21 GMT -8
Hello All,
I just wanted to check in. I really don't have much of an update as not much has changed. The POA is still in my life.
One thing is different is that I did get an SAA sponsor for the time being. Someone I feel comfortable working with and not rushing me through the step work. I've been in this cycle with my POA for a little over a year. In any case or 12 step program I have attempted, I have struggled with Step 1. Obsession has a very powerful stronghold and every attempt at trying to handle on my own has failed. There are times when I do not want to get up and go about my day and there are days when I want to shut everyone out. However, I cannot. If my son wasn't here I'm not sure If I would even be living today. There are so many tools and so many "you should do this and that" and "how to's"....... yet everyone situation is different. Different lives. Different wounds. But all led to the same disease. On the flip side, I have not given up hope or my inner most desires to get better. My road to recovery is long and sometimes fuzzy but I'm still traveling. Thanks for listening.
I just wanted to check in. I really don't have much of an update as not much has changed. The POA is still in my life.
One thing is different is that I did get an SAA sponsor for the time being. Someone I feel comfortable working with and not rushing me through the step work. I've been in this cycle with my POA for a little over a year. In any case or 12 step program I have attempted, I have struggled with Step 1. Obsession has a very powerful stronghold and every attempt at trying to handle on my own has failed. There are times when I do not want to get up and go about my day and there are days when I want to shut everyone out. However, I cannot. If my son wasn't here I'm not sure If I would even be living today. There are so many tools and so many "you should do this and that" and "how to's"....... yet everyone situation is different. Different lives. Different wounds. But all led to the same disease. On the flip side, I have not given up hope or my inner most desires to get better. My road to recovery is long and sometimes fuzzy but I'm still traveling. Thanks for listening.