Post by Light on Feb 15, 2019 8:55:49 GMT -8
Hallo everyone, I'm back, hoping you all are well!
I'm well, live a regular, happy life. I have a second job in Counselling, and I love it!
The bad news is that despite my recovery, I still used to write to Poa with a sort of romatic update emails.
The point is that after about 15 years of addiction, and me writing without response, last year he blocked me.
This was a painful thing for me of course, but it worked to redimensionate my compulsion on writing.
It still happen, now and then that I write something to him but rarely.As months pass by I feel the urge of contact. I've tried to examinate my beahavior, but I don't find an answer to this compulsion.
Today I think my poa doesn't deserve much honor for he could spend more words with me, instead he chose silence, for years.
Anyway, I know the problem is not him, but it's me.
It is my absurde attachment to someone I barely know...It is matter of my subconscious...
Anyway what I wonder is : why did he blocked me after 15 years and not before?
What do you think?
Thank you all, and big hug!
Light
I'm well, live a regular, happy life. I have a second job in Counselling, and I love it!
The bad news is that despite my recovery, I still used to write to Poa with a sort of romatic update emails.
The point is that after about 15 years of addiction, and me writing without response, last year he blocked me.
This was a painful thing for me of course, but it worked to redimensionate my compulsion on writing.
It still happen, now and then that I write something to him but rarely.As months pass by I feel the urge of contact. I've tried to examinate my beahavior, but I don't find an answer to this compulsion.
Today I think my poa doesn't deserve much honor for he could spend more words with me, instead he chose silence, for years.
Anyway, I know the problem is not him, but it's me.
It is my absurde attachment to someone I barely know...It is matter of my subconscious...
Anyway what I wonder is : why did he blocked me after 15 years and not before?
What do you think?
Thank you all, and big hug!
Light
