Post by RoseNadler on Apr 17, 2019 13:23:01 GMT -8
So, first the good news: I got a job offer today! After having been unemployed since January, that IS good news.
Now why am I still anxious?
1) This new job is in a very similar environment to my last job - and my last job became toxic when I had been there about two years.
But I liked that job - until my supervisor left. That was when things started to go south. I’m trying to remember that. What are the odds of having another very toxic atmosphere at work? There can’t be that many of them. Plus, I had a chance to talk to a guy who already works there, and he seems to think it’s OK.
2) What if my boyfriend asks me to move out, now that I’ve got a job?
I’m still insecure. I’m still afraid that I’ve ruined the relationship beyond repair. Even though he did agree to try again. Even though he said he loves me.
I think I have generalized anxiety disorder (although I don’t have a formal diagnosis.) All my life, I’ve been doing this. No matter how good my life is, I *always* find something to worry about.
Now why am I still anxious?
1) This new job is in a very similar environment to my last job - and my last job became toxic when I had been there about two years.
But I liked that job - until my supervisor left. That was when things started to go south. I’m trying to remember that. What are the odds of having another very toxic atmosphere at work? There can’t be that many of them. Plus, I had a chance to talk to a guy who already works there, and he seems to think it’s OK.
2) What if my boyfriend asks me to move out, now that I’ve got a job?
I’m still insecure. I’m still afraid that I’ve ruined the relationship beyond repair. Even though he did agree to try again. Even though he said he loves me.
I think I have generalized anxiety disorder (although I don’t have a formal diagnosis.) All my life, I’ve been doing this. No matter how good my life is, I *always* find something to worry about.
