Post by RoseNadler on May 15, 2019 13:52:32 GMT -8
d**n Facebook.
I check out people I know, and it seems like they’re all doing really well. Happy marriages, good kids, decent careers. And me? I have a string of bad relationships, no kids, and a spotty career.
I beat myself up; I say things like, “Everybody else can do these things; what’s wrong with me?” I have the most envy for people younger than me, who got their act together already.
It’s not the mean, etoxic kind of jealousy/envy. I don’t want to take anything away from these people. I just wish I could have what they have.
I tell myself, “I’ve had depression, anxiety, and an addiction all my life. Maybe these people didn’t.”
I tell myself, “It could be a whole lot worse. I’m healthy, and I have friends and family and a nice middle-class lifestyle. A lot of people are worse off than me.”
But I still feel bad about myself because other people my own age and younger seem to have their lives in order, going on a good track.
I need to do more things that are good for me. LAA program work, therapy, meditation. And I have a massage appointment in two weeks. That’s a form of self-care that I wholeheartedly recommend.
I check out people I know, and it seems like they’re all doing really well. Happy marriages, good kids, decent careers. And me? I have a string of bad relationships, no kids, and a spotty career.
I beat myself up; I say things like, “Everybody else can do these things; what’s wrong with me?” I have the most envy for people younger than me, who got their act together already.
It’s not the mean, etoxic kind of jealousy/envy. I don’t want to take anything away from these people. I just wish I could have what they have.
I tell myself, “I’ve had depression, anxiety, and an addiction all my life. Maybe these people didn’t.”
I tell myself, “It could be a whole lot worse. I’m healthy, and I have friends and family and a nice middle-class lifestyle. A lot of people are worse off than me.”
But I still feel bad about myself because other people my own age and younger seem to have their lives in order, going on a good track.
I need to do more things that are good for me. LAA program work, therapy, meditation. And I have a massage appointment in two weeks. That’s a form of self-care that I wholeheartedly recommend.