In this forum, there are many sufferers. Some are experienced tutors. I am afraid that they may be judgemental and teach me a lot. I am ashamed that I met PoA after a while in a bar. I dared to court her because I wanted her reaction. Her reaction is “I do and will do” when I asked her if she still loved me and wanted to marry me. Next day, I sent a message with a plan of travel together to her home country. After saying it’s good, she ignored all my messages, saying she’s too busy working. Well. I did it again. The all day, I felt terribely uncomfortable and deleted her account from my phone again.
I broke my family. I was very sad in my family my childhood because my elder brother had mental illness and my parents had to take care of him more. That’s why I got married before I became 30 and made my own family. Got one son and one daughter. Could my kids to my parents. However, I had affairs over and over and now I left my own family. I was sad in my childhood. So I had my own family but I broke my family. What I am doing right now? What do I really want?