Post by RoseNadler on May 3, 2020 7:18:51 GMT -8
....and it’s probably never going to go away and just let me enjoy the good things about my life, once and for all.
The past few years have been bad. Yeah, it’s a transition and a “growth experience” and who knows, maybe I’ll be a better person in the long run. But enough of that sugarcoating. The past few years have been BAD, not “dysfunctional,” or “a learning experience.”
I was really, really happy before, two different times in my life. I’m grateful for that. I know that some people don’t get as much as I got. No matter how badly I hurt, I always feel guilt and shame because so many people have been through much worse things.
I’ve been really happy before, and I know how good it feels, and I’m hurting now and I don’t know if I’ll ever get the good feeling back. And it’s like the whole d**n world is on a downward trajectory. The political situation. COVID-19. What’s next, a giant meteor hitting the earth?
L and I plan to go to a park for a walk later today, and I do have anti-anxiety meds that I’m allowed to take when it’s really bad. Maybe now is one of those times.
The past few years have been bad. Yeah, it’s a transition and a “growth experience” and who knows, maybe I’ll be a better person in the long run. But enough of that sugarcoating. The past few years have been BAD, not “dysfunctional,” or “a learning experience.”
I was really, really happy before, two different times in my life. I’m grateful for that. I know that some people don’t get as much as I got. No matter how badly I hurt, I always feel guilt and shame because so many people have been through much worse things.
I’ve been really happy before, and I know how good it feels, and I’m hurting now and I don’t know if I’ll ever get the good feeling back. And it’s like the whole d**n world is on a downward trajectory. The political situation. COVID-19. What’s next, a giant meteor hitting the earth?
L and I plan to go to a park for a walk later today, and I do have anti-anxiety meds that I’m allowed to take when it’s really bad. Maybe now is one of those times.
