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Post by terra on Feb 18, 2021 7:47:44 GMT -8
RoseNadler,
I have been pretty responsible when it gets to my and my daughter's health. Been seeing an endocrinologist since I believe 2009. There's no cure for autoimmune, just supplements for low thyroid levels. My podiatrist suggested surgery but he knows and I know that it is useless at best: we need tech like stem cells that would target a certain area to regrow tissue. I can function running my daily operations fine and try not to overburden myself. It actually improved quite a bit since the source of endless anxiety and 5am rises is gone.
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Post by terra on Feb 18, 2021 7:49:48 GMT -8
Like I said I take proper good quality vitamins and stuff, do not have poor dietary habits. LA is enough.
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Post by RoseNadler on Feb 18, 2021 9:56:59 GMT -8
I wasn’t trying to say that you didn’t take care of your health. I’m sorry if it sounded that way.
What I meant was this: If you need to see a doctor, how hard is it for you to get an appointment? How expensive is it? In the U.S., it can be hard to get a doctor’s appointment in the first place. And then paying for it can be expensive.
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Post by terra on Feb 18, 2021 13:46:05 GMT -8
No worries.
I'm not offended at all.
I'm familiar with medical care structure. Of course, universal care or whatever Bernie calls it, would be ideal but this subject is beyond the scope of current discussion: smiling face.
It's pretty much what is being discussed on fb.
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Post by terra on Feb 24, 2021 9:00:19 GMT -8
Last weekend there was an avalanche of emails and texts from him promulgating an ever lasting luv to his wife and false statements about paying rent directly to C, our landlord as of December of 2020.
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Post by terra on Feb 25, 2021 14:13:30 GMT -8
I really didn't feel like arguing with the jerk: wrote back to this "happy" couple that I was not interested and per C, my landlord, no alleged rent payment came in in December, January and February.
Those rants" when will you understand that I in love and married..." seem to be directed rather at his current victim than me. The letter that I sent was "this is an attempt to collect debt" and nothing else. His screams about love&marriage come across as redundant and absolutely unnecessary. His audience does not include me.
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Post by terra on Feb 27, 2021 7:12:12 GMT -8
All those screams sent from her email are, in reality, directed at the current victim of the narcissist.
I was asking to pay overdue rent. Nothing else. Nobody requested his return "home". Those months away from narcissist have been a blessing. I'm grateful that he is gone: he had removed himself.
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Post by terra on Feb 27, 2021 14:03:02 GMT -8
It has been nine months or so since R removed himself from my life. I feel serene. The only anxiety that comes and goes is money related and productivity. If I feel like I'm not productive enough, I feel deeply dissatisfied.
Other than that, no worries. It's great not to have seductive withholder anymore in my life. A year ago I was so anxious with driving him and from work, cooking etc. All those worries are in the past. I don't think I will ever let myself be so accommodating to a man.
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Post by terra on Mar 2, 2021 6:06:13 GMT -8
May 2nd, the day R dumped me, is going to be A Liberation Day for me going forward.
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Post by terra on Mar 18, 2021 9:17:27 GMT -8
I have sent a super polite and very formal past due rent request to her email( that is the only working email address of him that I know of). I got hit back with a filthy reply full of " you're lying wh**...I never wanted you. I left you. You broke in our house bringing another letter full of lies, when were not home. I wanted to help your kid. I'm bringing up charges...."
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Post by RoseNadler on Mar 19, 2021 8:23:49 GMT -8
I really wish it was possible for you and him to only communicate through your lawyer.
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Post by terra on Mar 26, 2021 14:51:50 GMT -8
Thank you, I agree with you. Unfortunately, it is not feasible financially.
It is going only one more communication going out in April when rent is due.
I have blocked all numbers as well as emails from her, so i will not see any more of that rude stuff.
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Post by terra on Jul 4, 2021 15:37:17 GMT -8
Life is good, what can I say? Just came back from a little vаcation: my kid and I drove to Miami for two weeks. I enjoy life without my xPoA to its fulliest. The ongoing struggle has been to quit people's pleasing.
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Post by terra on Sept 6, 2021 15:20:46 GMT -8
Hello,
Fast forward first, I'm well and so much over my xPoA. Took my kid on two vacations so far this year. Planning to fly to Rome over Thanksgiving break, restrictions allowed. A quick question: I tend to still attract people, men and women, not sexually of course, but in general that connect to me not in the most healthy way. I can tell almost right away. I mean clients. I don't really like it. At all. Now I am thinking that it is the same issue that manifests itself differently but profoundly it's the same: addiction. To me now. Am I right or just attributing features that seem to be fitting into the old old pattern?
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Post by RoseNadler on Sept 7, 2021 5:53:17 GMT -8
I think that because of the work you’ve done in LAA, you’re more aware of unhealthy situations of all kinds. Learning about LAA first helps you see patterns and pick up bad vibes in romantic relationships. But if you keep at it, your awareness expands to friends, family members, coworkers, etc.
IMHO, it’s a good thing to be able to listen to your own instincts that tell you something isn’t quite right. And it’s good to set boundaries with people in general - not just romantic prospects.
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Post by terra on Sept 7, 2021 9:52:56 GMT -8
Thank you.
I agree there is a problem with boundaries in general. But I also I think that I might still attract addicts. Whether they realize that or not. Both genders, work related. Some people get latched to me. Now I am sure it is me who attracts them, too.
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Post by RoseNadler on Sept 7, 2021 10:40:12 GMT -8
Yes, I, too, tend to attract unhealthy people. I’ve had several relationships with female friends (totally platonic) that were really messed up and dysfunctional.
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Post by terra on Sept 7, 2021 15:35:20 GMT -8
Same here. I sensed it before but really never fully identified that. Now I tend to think that I am really cautious but not really. Aftermath is relentless. I have no intentions to get to people too close too fast. But even when I know this client for like seven or eight months which is not too fast, she invited myself and y kid to her brand new place. And suddenly attacked me verbally in front of my kid. She brought things up which I said randomly some time ago and it did not carry any significance. At least that what I was thinking back then. Why?  I mind my own business, work on building up my clientele and really enjoy time spent with my kid. We drove to Miami in June and back, stayed there for like over a week, then in July we went to Lake Geneva, WI for another week. It was serene. I really do not want any aggravation. Why am I still attracting unhealthy ones? There must be something I am doing.
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Post by rosebud73 on Jan 4, 2022 5:48:56 GMT -8
The narcissistic cycle is extremely addictive. I like to find healthy positive excitement and risk that is outside of them- focus on self-love and do thought reframing (Caroline Leaf). " I am giving myself an upgrade." "I am choosing to love myself" etc. I also focus on the things I don't like about the person and esp the things that disgust me.
I find that disgust can help me unhook from desire. As can outrage, anger. And since I love to help people- the thought of not wishing for my kids like/love similar people.
Seeking income outside of him and the Plan B should the income stop, will help you feel more empowered esp if you start planning now vs waiting for him to choose to stop sending money.
I had LC with my ex-husband. It IS extremely difficult to navigate- I agree.
Rosebud
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Post by terra on Mar 20, 2022 19:34:59 GMT -8
I have been doing extremely well until this war started. I'm a ukrainian. Now I'm really angry off. It has been almost two years since he ran off He could have said at least that he is sorry that my country is being bombed by crazy putin and a few cities just destroyed and burned to the ground.
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Post by RoseNadler on Mar 21, 2022 5:11:33 GMT -8
Terra, are you actually in Ukraine now? If I recall correctly, you were not. How about people you care about, friends and family?
I can’t even imagine what this must be like for you. What a nightmare. Please let people here know if you need some help - even just a listening ear.
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Post by terra on Mar 21, 2022 9:14:46 GMT -8
I'm in US. For almost 30 years
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Post by terra on Mar 21, 2022 9:16:02 GMT -8
My mom who survived holocaust and nazi occupation is in lviv. Along with my bro. My mom would not leave.
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Post by Susan Peabody on Mar 21, 2022 11:24:36 GMT -8
My mom who survived holocaust and nazi occupation is in lviv. Along with my bro. My mom would not leave. I am so distraught by the war that you would think I lived there. I can't believe what a monstrous thing it is. I don't understand why we can't send in troops to help. The one bright spot is the president and the courage and stamina of the people who call Ukraine home. It is inspiring. I pray for them everyday.
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Post by Susan Peabody on Mar 21, 2022 11:26:03 GMT -8
Save yourself. He will never change . . .
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Post by terra on Mar 21, 2022 12:26:53 GMT -8
Thank you guys. No boots on the ground, I respect that. No no- fly zone- kind of. USA does not want to take a chance to risk a direct confrontation with putin. For decades I been telling folks that there should be no romance with post communism Russia. What a coincidence- putin is a narcissistic psychopath.
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