Post by Susan Peabody on Jun 17, 2020 13:34:49 GMT -8
Fifth Step Prayer
Higher Power, My inventory has shown me who I am, Yet I ask for Your help In admitting my wrongs to another person and to You. Assure me, and be with me, in this Step, For without this Step I cannot progress in my recovery. With Your help, I can do this, and I do it.
The fried of mine D. asked me to post her life stories to the steps (I am going to Russian meetings too and I was need to translate it).
The Fifth Step. Sponsor, sisters, like-minded people, my new family - this is all about the fifth step, about sharing the pain, confessing to another person about my shortcomings, getting and showing the blackest thing that I have. It is to open up to the end, to clear the heart, prepare for changes.
Last Edit: Dec 8, 2021 7:12:29 GMT -8 by lianita24
I joined LAA and confessed to the members of my love addiction, compulsions, and obsessions. For the first time, I had te courage to open up and expressed my addiction and shortcomings to other people. I used to be defensive and a perfectionist. I blamed other people and situations for my wrong doing, but for the first time in my life, I took ownership of my dysfunction and admitted that I was wrong. I expressed my weaknesses and sought for help. Only when I have accepted myself and surrendered to my Higher Power, did I have the strength to confront and make peace with my inner demons. I felt liberated from the chains of the addiction. My energetic being is now FREE!
Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
The Sunday Step Study Meeting has just finished studying Step 4, and now we will move onto Step 5 on 8th May.
Whilst it is helpful to attend all sessions (we complete a Step a month over the year), it is not essential; you can join us at any time. We use the LAA Step Guide and supplement it with other resources helpful to understanding and working the steps, heavily drawing on members' experience, strength and hope. We are not working the Steps as a group, but are discussing the LAA questions from the step work. Some find a sponsor, decide to work together with another member, or co-sponsor each other, making connections through attending these meetings.
We hope you will join us, whatever stage of the journey you are on.
Fifth Step Prayer
My inventory has shown me who I am and I ask God’s help in admitting my wrongs to another person and to you. Please be with me in this step, for without this step I cannot progress in my recovery.
With your help, I can do this and I will do it.
Step Study Meeting
Meeting lasts 90 minutes
11.00 a.m./11.00 Pacific Time / 2.00 p.m./14.00 Eastern Time
I spent some time last night telling my friend Jess about this group, the steps, and my step 4 inventory. She's really be a great help for me going through all of this with my husband. She reminds me when I start to go into withdrawal, when I begin to think about things being "not so bad," or when I'm in crisis. She will talk me through it.
I created two inventories. One was for Step 4, and the other could technically be for Step 5. I wrote a list of things I want to change about myself, which I have turned into boundaries. Examples include not oversharing, not being a know-it-all, listening more, not assuming every person wants to be my friend, and so on...
I have many great qualities and personality characteristics that I often forget when I am over-focusing on the addictive things I do. it's going to take some work to list them and then make them part of my daily reading in order to better focus on them.
* I'm a fun and awesome mom (though I often put my addiction in front of my children). My daughter and I have overcome so much, and my son is just good as gold. They enjoy talking to me about their lives, and when we get together, we always have a good time no matter what we do.
* I love riding my Harley and being with others who ride. I like supporting other women who want to learn to ride and being an example for others. I like when men think I shouldn't have ape hangers on my bike or are puzzled when they see the huge bike I have. It's funny how oppressive some people can be and don't even realize it.
* I love my sense of humor. Sometimes, I can get the whole group laughing. I really enjoy when others are happy and when I can make them happy.
* I love that I am creative and talented. I am a published author and researcher. I write poetry and songs (nothing professional). I have been a teacher for 26 years, I paint, do arts and crafts, and garden. I have many interests including travel, kayaking, hiking, and learning wherever I am about whatever is in front of me.
*I love to cook and feed people. It makes me so happy when people come to dinner, eat, and are happy. I think I get this from my grandmother who also enjoyed serving people.
*I am kind and generous, almost to a fault, which I have had to reign in. I am happy to help, to offer what I have, or to even invite people in if they need a place to regroup.
I can see how focusing on the positive brings my spirits up. This is just a start.