Trying to heal from a broken heart unbearable

Mocean:

Respect his silence. He is interpreting your behavior as harassment. When somebody tells you to stop, you stop. Especially nowadays in our current cyber/social media climate. He may be a total Avoidant. He may be a manipulator. He may be married. He may be anything. But he's told you clearly to STOP.

Whether he "loved" you or not or you were "used and tossed" doesn't matter. What matters is your own health. Don't hang on to somebody who has shown you who they are. That's a waste of your time. You're better than that.

Read the No Contact Rules first. There is no other way around this. NC = No New Hurts.

Next, read things about how to handle yourself post-break up. Books. Internet articles. Advice.

My final "I can't deal with this anymore" came in 2006 when I GOT CLUED IN and got myself into therapy. My therapist is the one who led me in the direction of this being an addiction (she was in AA). That clicked and started me on years of self-work.

Read the board, post, reach out. Believe me - there are folks in the struggle who have BTDT, done it again, and again and then said, "DONE". And were DONE. We've heard it all!