I’m new here and hope I can get some help or guidance on healing from a broken heart.
We met a year ago online, great connecting from the start and sparks we’re flying. The connecting was even better in person. We started going on trips, getting intimate spending time with each other I never felt happier in my life. We had so much passion together and never any problems. 9 months into us seeing each other I expressed my feelings and told him I fell deeply in love. When I expressed myself he blocked and deleted me everywhere. I’ve been begging and pleading him to give me closure to tell me why he hurt me (I use different numbers) to get ahold of him. He responded today that I need to stop with the harassment.
It’s been four months since this all happend and each day gets worse and worse. I’m struggling to move on I’m struggling to stop contact I’m stressing and this is showing in my health and work.
If anyone has been through this please can you tell me how you healed? I appreciate tips and suggestions. Did he ever love me back or was I used and tossed?
Respect his silence. He is interpreting your behavior as harassment. When somebody tells you to stop, you stop. Especially nowadays in our current cyber/social media climate. He may be a total Avoidant. He may be a manipulator. He may be married. He may be anything. But he's told you clearly to STOP.
Whether he "loved" you or not or you were "used and tossed" doesn't matter. What matters is your own health. Don't hang on to somebody who has shown you who they are. That's a waste of your time. You're better than that.
Read the No Contact Rules first. There is no other way around this. NC = No New Hurts.
Next, read things about how to handle yourself post-break up. Books. Internet articles. Advice.
My final "I can't deal with this anymore" came in 2006 when I GOT CLUED IN and got myself into therapy. My therapist is the one who led me in the direction of this being an addiction (she was in AA). That clicked and started me on years of self-work.
Read the board, post, reach out. Believe me - there are folks in the struggle who have BTDT, done it again, and again and then said, "DONE". And were DONE. We've heard it all!