Post by RoseNadler on Feb 17, 2021 15:18:03 GMT -8
While L. and I were separated, I dated several men. The only one who was worth a d**n was J. Funnily enough, he reminded me of L. in a lot of ways. We really clicked at first, and the “spark” was there from the first time we met. We dated for a month, then had sex the first time on New Years 2017/2018. Then about three days later he broke up with me.
I actually handled it pretty well - I wasn’t in recovery at the time, but I think now that I was heading in that direction. I accepted it and stayed polite, and did not keep trying to get him to come back.
Today I was on FB, and ran across the profile of somebody J. and I both knew....and from there to J.’s profile.
J. is engaged now.
And even though I’m back with L. and we’re doing well, I’m a little jealous. I miss that spark and passion and romance. I can’t help thinking, “If only the spark could have lasted forever for me and L.” And knowing I might not ever feel that feeling again....ugh. The recovering addict fondly remembering the high...
What if….I could do Step Three BEFORE my life becomes a total disaster?