Post by RoseNadler on Sept 13, 2021 6:58:01 GMT -8
My anxiety and fear of abandonment really went off the charts around this incident. It brought up a whole lot of fear and pain from my childhood. It occurred to me that maybe fear of loss and abandonment is my deepest, biggest problem - that led to my LA.
When I have these spells, I really do feel like a little kid, terrified that Mommy or Daddy is going to stay angry at me forever. It knocks me back in time 50 years. Luckily, my inner adult is getting stronger….better at making itself heard; better at encouraging me to do the ordinary, practical things of my daily routine.
The anxiety was at its absolute worst yesterday. It’s still hovering right below the surface. But I’m doing my regular routine including spiritual and self-help work. I think that will help.
What if….I could do Step Three BEFORE my life becomes a total disaster?