Hallmark movies

I used to love watching Hallmark movies any time of year but especially during the holidays. A few years ago, I realized that I would get my highs from watching the movies. I wanted a Hallmark relationship and would feel like there was something wrong with my marriage because it was nothing like the Hallmark movies. Watching Hallmark would send me into a tailspin of fantasies with my POA. This is probably the first year I didn’t watch any holiday Hallmark movies. I also realized that music would trigger my fantasizing as well. There was a specific artist that I used to listen to at the height of my addiction and I remember feeling high everytime I listened to her music. I am now very selective and mindful with what I watch and listen to in order to avoid any triggers.