Hi

I am trying to understand the love addiction. I'm married, and Christian, but even though I was set free from pornography and masturbation, I have discovered that I'm still in need of healing in this area of my life. For example, online, I tried to help a suicidal women about a year ago, and we were talking daily and I developed fealings for her. A few months before that, I was helping a female co-worker and she started to flirt with me and I admit to flirting back. This developed some kind of connection. Both relationships are now ended. The online women, I longer contact and told my wife. It hurt my wife a lot that I did that. The other co-worker one, I don't talk to her in that way but only about work and occasionally light friendly talk, not as the talk before. This is why I feel that I was interested in the SLAA.

I used to attend 12 Step AA and SA meetings and am familiar with the AABB and SAWB and also purchased Kindle SLAA since I thought I was losing my mind. I only read chapter 1 and 2. That is where I am right now. I am "feeling" ok now but I know where trusting my feelings got me.

I am most comfortable with a man helping me. I honestly will be triggers if a women tries to help me. I am triggered when I talk to women online to be honest. It's not always a lust encounter but that is who I am basically. Thank you for listening to me.