Post by RoseNadler on Mar 14, 2023 11:55:17 GMT -8
March has been a tough month for me, and I’m feeling low.
I work for a company that has a contract with a government agency, and we’re supposed to find out this month if our contract got renewed.
For background: I’m in an occupation that’s undervalued; a lot of the work is contract work. And if I start out knowing that my end date will be [some date] I can handle that. However, sometimes contracts get ended without any warning. This has happened to me five times. I’m getting sick and tired of starting over again every frigging year or so.
Also, this is the first job I’ve had that I actually LIKE in about ten years.
Also, even if we do get the contract renewed, my team lead just told us he has found another job. This is a good thing for him, and I’m glad for his sake. But it sucks to lose a good manager—they’re so rare.
In other news, I have to catch a flight on Friday to visit my immediate family—who live in a place I dislike intensely. I want to see my dad—our relationship has improved a lot. But I don’t like anything else about this. I hate the place where they live, and I hate hassling around with airports and planes. Also, my memories of this place are mostly about my mother dying from cancer. Every time I have to go there, I feel terrible about Mom all over again.
So, I’m in a bad place right now. I know things could be worse, and I’m trying to keep it in perspective. You don’t get to be happy all the time; bad moods and bad events are a part of everybody’s life.
I just have to believe it’s temporary, and that sometime in the future, I’ll feel better. And I need to get help from my HP to avoid doing anything destructive as a mood-changer.
I work for a company that has a contract with a government agency, and we’re supposed to find out this month if our contract got renewed.
For background: I’m in an occupation that’s undervalued; a lot of the work is contract work. And if I start out knowing that my end date will be [some date] I can handle that. However, sometimes contracts get ended without any warning. This has happened to me five times. I’m getting sick and tired of starting over again every frigging year or so.
Also, this is the first job I’ve had that I actually LIKE in about ten years.
Also, even if we do get the contract renewed, my team lead just told us he has found another job. This is a good thing for him, and I’m glad for his sake. But it sucks to lose a good manager—they’re so rare.
In other news, I have to catch a flight on Friday to visit my immediate family—who live in a place I dislike intensely. I want to see my dad—our relationship has improved a lot. But I don’t like anything else about this. I hate the place where they live, and I hate hassling around with airports and planes. Also, my memories of this place are mostly about my mother dying from cancer. Every time I have to go there, I feel terrible about Mom all over again.
So, I’m in a bad place right now. I know things could be worse, and I’m trying to keep it in perspective. You don’t get to be happy all the time; bad moods and bad events are a part of everybody’s life.
I just have to believe it’s temporary, and that sometime in the future, I’ll feel better. And I need to get help from my HP to avoid doing anything destructive as a mood-changer.