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Post by Susan Peabody on Aug 8, 2008 8:53:23 GMT -8
From Whispersoft . . .I had a vivid dream the other night that I was lured back to my ex's house. I saw myself walking into the living room with him standing there as I prepared to place my purse on his couch and sit down. Before I could sit down on that couch, I had an odd yet powerful experience. I "willed" myself to wake up. I literally woke myself up. As as I awoke I was saying no over and over. I loudly said "No, no, no, no, no. I don't want to go back to (his name) house. I don't want it anymore. I don't want to live that way anymore. I deserve a life. I deserve a good life." I was startled by the eruption. I don't know why it happened. But I am glad that it did. Lying in my bed after that powerful burst, I felt a tremendous amount of energy flowing through my body. I had a strong feeling that I had somehow broken through a barrier that would allow me to begin the process of regaining control of my life with a greater confidence. It was truly a WOW moment. I continue to take myself back to the feelings I had in that moment. The fear I felt with the thought of being with him again in his house. The control I knew I would give up being there...and my refusal to give over control of my life to him again. What I know is that we are given what we need when we need it. We have only to be accepting of the gifts. I am so grateful that I am beginning to feel my heart open up again to a force I have not felt so deeply in a long time. I will continue to trust it and allow that ever-present love inside. The more love I allow in, the less space there is for the pain, the guilt, and the confusion.
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Post by LovelyJune on Aug 8, 2008 9:09:01 GMT -8
From Whispersoft . . .The control I knew I would give up being there...and my refusal to give over control of my life to him again. this is very powerful. especially regarding the control that we so often give up and don't even realize what we are giving up. Your subconscious is working OT for you, whisper! T
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