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Post by Susan Peabody on Jan 10, 2009 14:56:29 GMT -8
Years ago, at the end of my last visit with my therapist at the time, she turned to me and said, “Susan, you have a great capacity to change.” Then she gave me a hug and sent me on my way. At the time I thought: Is this it? Is this all she has to say at the end of a five-year relationship? Of course, later I came to realize that her comment was the highest compliment she could have paid me. After all, the ability to change is something that many people only dream about. It is a commodity often in short supply, and without it life can be anything from boring to tragic.
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Post by Light on Dec 4, 2009 3:18:08 GMT -8
yesterday my therapist asked me: what made you want to change?
Till april 2009 I was still trapped in my addiction of six years.
I told him it was because my poa refused to be my friend, he closed the door on my face.
There was no more hope for any kind of relationship between us.
Despite that, I still wrote him e mails. When I became aware I just couldn't stop e mailing, I got scared of myself, I couldn't control myself anymore.
I couldn't stop the pain. So I strongly wanted to find a solution. I was alone with my problem. My therapist was not able to give me the right tools to fight my addiction in years or maybe I was not yet ready to change.
When I felt trapped and with no hope, I prayed God to help me find a solution inside of me, then I found this site and my recovery started.
What made me want to change?
My poa's denial? hitting rock bottom? Fear of not having control anymore? being tired of suffering? my prayers?
Maybe all of that.........
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